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Parashat
Beha’alotcha
Carrying the Light - How is Torah the Prerequisite for
Dwelling in the Land?

Torah wisdom from Rebbetzin Chana Bracha Siegelbaum
Author, EmunaHealer, Founder and Director of Midreshet B'erot Bat Ayin
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Parashat
Beha’alotcha
Carrying the Light - How is Torah the Prerequisite for
Dwelling in the Land?
Carrying Our Sacred Responsibility in the Land
The Levites
carried the Mishkan in the desert. Today, we carry the sanctity of the Land in
our own way. Living in Eretz Yisrael is not always easy – there are
physical challenges, bureaucratic obstacles, and moments of loneliness. But
just as each Levi had to bear his assigned portion – whether it was the heavy
planks, the shimmering curtains, or the sacred vessels – each of us carries our
piece of the collective inheritance.
Living
in Bat Ayin, we can perceive how every soul brings a different panel, a
different curtain, a different vessel to the collective sanctuary of our
people. Each student who comes to learn Torah, plant a garden, raise children,
or simply breathe in the holiness of the Land is carrying their part of the
Mishkan – their avodat hakodesh. Each of us, with our unique
contribution and role in the community, reflects our deeper spiritual mission,
aligned with our soul’s root and place of rectification within the Divine
structure of the nation.
Parashat
Bamidbar
How Does
the Wilderness Prepare Us to Inherit the Land of Israel?
What
made Me Embrace the Torah in The Old City of Jerusalem on Shavuot?
This
Shavuot, I celebrate 45 years of Torah! I can hardly believe how the years have
flowed by, like foamy waves softening and refining our hearts, as hardships
etched their traces into the furrows of our faces. I look back with nostalgia
to that first Shavuot – the beginning of my teshuva – when everything was new.
I found myself among a circle of women, sitting on cool stones under the starry
sky in the Old City of Jerusalem. It was the first time I learned about Ruth –
who left behind the comfort of her regal home, her country, and all that was
familiar, to follow her aged mother-in-law Naomi toward an unknown destiny.
I, too,
had recently left my own country, my childhood home, and the prospect of a
prestigious university degree to follow my heart and fulfill an undefined
calling. Was Ruth also a truth seeker, who found the pomp of prosperity
superficial while looking for a deeper meaning and mission in life? I pondered.
Since my
teenage years, I had been searching for truth. I had rejected the Marxism I was
taught in high school, which focused solely on dismantling economic classes without
addressing the values that would define the envisioned society of financial
equality. Dancing in the inner city with born-again Xtians whose theology
conflicted with everything I would later come to value felt exciting at the
time, but their answers rang hollow and rehearsed. Though I was a flower-power
girl immersed in the hippy counterculture, I was never drawn enough to the East
to join my friends traveling to India and Nepal in search of spirituality and
inner vision. Yoga helped me strengthen my body, but it in no way touched my
soul.
I had
never considered seeking truth within my own Jewish heritage. The Jewish
experiences of my youth had led me to believe Judaism was nothing more than a
culinary creed wrapped in outdated rules, lacking any spiritual essence.
Yet here
I was, in the holy city of Jerusalem, at the Women’s Division of the Diaspora
Yeshiva – where I had surprisingly found my spiritual home. I still remember
hearing Rabbi Goldstein proclaim: “Now that you’ve received the Torah, can you
give it back? No, you can’t. You have to keep it!” At that moment, I knew I was
hooked for life.
What
Does it Take to Make our Torah Transformative and Enduring?
The Imrei
Emet explains that the Torah was given to rectify the three core flaws of
humanity – jealousy, lust, and pride – reflected in the sins of early
generations: Kayin, the generation of the Flood, and the Tower of Babel. The
mitzvot at Matan Torah correspond to these: the boundary around Mount Sinai
addressed jealousy – giving each person their designated space; the command to
abstain from marital intimacy represented restraint – countering lust; and
standing humbly at the foot of the mountain symbolized submission – opposing
pride. This is why the Torah was given with fire, water, and wilderness –
representing passion, humility, and self-nullification. Every day, we are
challenged by jealousy, lust, and pride – and only through the power of Torah
can we overcome them. Moreover, to truly acquire Torah, we must make ourselves
like a wilderness – open, humble, and ownerless (Imrei Emet, Bamidbar, 5667).
This concept hits home when I reminisce about those early days of embracing
Torah, most of the students in Diaspora Yeshiva from affluent American families,
made great sacrifices to leave flourishing careers and promising prosperous
futures behind, to dedicate ourselves to Torah learning in the Land of Israel. As
the Imrei Emet teaches, as long as we make ourselves like a desert completely
given over and devoted to Torah and Mitzvot (mesirut nefesh), through
this inner work of surrendering our selves, our Torah becomes transformative
and enduring. Now, 45 years later this concept has proven true through the
descendants of the students of the ‘hippy yeshiva’ raising families deeply
rooted in Torah and mitzvot.
Parashat
Behar/Bechukotai
How does
keeping the Sabbatical and Jubilee Years Bring About Redemption?
The Return to Our Source During the
Jubilee Year
Parashat Behar
introduces the mitzvah of the Jubilee year – a spiritual milestone that
challenges us even more than the Sabbatical year. After observing seven full
Shemitta cycles, the Torah calls upon us to sanctify an additional year – the
fiftieth – and to refrain from working the land for a second consecutive year:
Parashat
Acharei Mot-Kedoshim
What are
the Conditions for Remaining in the Holy Land and Enjoying Its Blessings?