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Are We
Ready to Face King of Kings on the Day of Judgment?
Rosh Hashana is so much more than apples
and honey. I feel my entire being tighten a bit when we approach the Day of
Judgment. Not only is the summer vacation definitely over, it’s like the entire
year is one big vacation compared to Rosh Hashana and the days that precede and
follow this awesome day. The High Holidays are called יָמִים הַנּוֹרָאִים/yamim hanora’im – ‘The days of
Awe,’ because we are facing the King of Kings, Whom we respect and fear. So
that’s a bit scary and there is a natural tendency to run away and hide. Yet, we
eventually realize that even within our escape, G-d is there. Not only is Hashem
everywhere, He is actually helping us flee. Running away from facing G-d is the
opposite of ‘standing.’ This is one of the reasons why we always read Parashat
Nitzavim during the Shabbat preceding Rosh Hashana, since nitzavim
means to stand – to stand firmly. Standing implies awareness, attentiveness and
readiness. Eliyahu the prophet said, “By the life of Hashem, the G-d of
Israel, before whom I have stood…” (I Melachim 17:1). On Rosh Hashana
we must stand before Hashem in mindful prayer. Standing is acknowledging that we
cannot fly away, although there is such a great temptation to flee in fear. Resisting
standing before Hashem is in actuality to run away from ourselves – from the
very deepest place of who we truly are. When I want to run away from facing
Hashem – from facing myself – I realize that I have a deep fear of true
intimacy with my G-d and my divine self. Yet eventually we will all be standing
before Hashem. There is no way around it. The more we try to escape the more we
will come close at the end of the day. Yet we can save ourselves some detours
by daring to face our fears.
Standing
Upright with Raised Heads
Our body language reveals a great deal
about who we are. A very bent-over person may lack self-confidence and
determination. I know several people who work very hard on attaining the
highest level of humility. In their desire to desist ‘showing off’ they miss
the opportunity for inspiring others by for example teaching their highest
Torah and leading the prayers from the depths of their heart. They erroneously believe
that refraining from achieving success and greatness is the uppermost level of
humility. The Torah teaches us to the contrary that we must stand upright
facing Hashem:
ספר דברים פרק כט פסוק ט
אַתֶּם נִצָּבִים
הַיּוֹם כֻּלְּכֶם לִפְנֵי הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֵיכֶם רָאשֵׁיכֶם שִׁבְטֵיכֶם זִקְנֵיכֶם וְשֹׁטְרֵיכֶם
כֹּל אִישׁ יִשְׂרָאֵל:
“You are all standing this day before Hashem,
your G-d the leaders of your tribes, your elders and your officers, every man
of Israel” (Devarim 29:9).
The word נִצָּבִים/nitzavim means more than just
‘standing’ it denotes the particular way of standing firmly and upright.
Standing straight and strong with uplifted head will help us succeed in
everything we do. The message of the following midrash is similarly that we
must put our greatest effort and our entire selves into serving Hashem in the
very highest way available to us: “…Scripture comes to tell us that when a
person performs a mitzvah he must do it with a complete heart, for had Reuven
known that G-d would have it recorded of him, “Reuven heard and he saved him
from their hands,” (Bereishit 37:21), he would have brought him [Yosef]
back on his shoulders to his father... (Midrash Ruth Rabbah 5:6). This
midrash gives additional examples of how great people in the Torah missed an
opportunity to excel even more in their mitzvah performance. In my
understanding due to our inherent lack of self-confidence, our fear of failing together
with our concern about becoming arrogant, we refrain from exerting ourselves to
the utmost in order to excel in all our endeavors. Rav Aviner explains that קִדּוּשָׁה/Kedusha – ‘holiness’ does not imply
that we should constantly bow our heads. The Torah teaches us to hold our heads
high. “When you raise up the heads of the Children of Israel” (Shemot
30:12). “For sin causes us to lower our head; evil is rooted in earthly concerns
and is lowly. Kedusha leads us to raise our eyes on high – to become
elevated both in quality and in quantity” (Ohr HaChaim HaKadosh, Shemot
30:12). Lowering our profile is analogous to sin. When we stand before Hashem,
we must stand straight and not bent over. The Ohr HaChaim further explains, “The
further anything is from kedusha, the lower its profile, the more bent
its head. Therefore, the Torah tells us that when we stand before G-d, we stand
upright with our heads raised” (ibid).
The
Key-Point of Rosh Hashana: Reentering the Covenant
“You are standing firmly today…” This
refers to the Day of Judgment (Zohar 2:32b). The depths of teshuva
(repentance) is to know before Whom we stand – “…before Hashem your G-d” (Devarim
29:9). What is the ultimate purpose of standing before Hashem? The
continuation of the opening section in Parashat Nitzavim clarifies:
ספר דברים פרק כט פסוק יא לְעָבְרְךָ בִּבְרִית
הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ וּבְאָלָתוֹ אֲשֶׁר הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ כֹּרֵת עִמְּךָ הַיּוֹם:
“…that you may enter the covenant of Hashem,
your G-d, and His oath, which Hashem, your G-d, is making with you this day (Devarim
29:11).
The key-point of Rosh Hashana is to feel
in our deepest essential self that on this day we are entering the covenant
with Hashem our G-d anew. This matter, which is intrenched in crowning Hashem
King and agreeing to His covenant, is the essence of Rosh Hashana and its main
message as we repeatedly proclaim in the Rosh Hashana prayers:
וְתִמְלוֹךְ אַתָּה
הוּא הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֵינוּ מְהֵרָה לְבַדֶּךָ עַל כָּל מַעֲשֶֹיךָ… מְלוֹךְ עַל כָּל הָעוֹלָם כֻּלּוֹ בִּכְבוֹדֶךָ…
“Reign shall you
Hashem alone speedily over all Your creations and …be the King upon all
the entire world in Your honor” (Rosh Hashana Prayers).
Since the key-point of the Day of
Judgment is reentering the covenant with Hashem, the judgment pertaining to our
lives, health, livelihood etc. are all means to re-establish our covenant with
Him and achieve the greatest closeness to G-d. The very first word of Parashat
Netzavim, אַתֶּם/atem
– “you” plural, is the acronym for אַל תַּשְׁלִיכֵנִי
מִלְּפָנֶיךָ/al
tashlicheini milfaneicha – “Do not cast me away from before You” (Tehillim
51:13); (Based on Netivot Shalom, Parashat Nitzavim pp. 184-185). Our
highest aspirations and aim as Jews are to consummate our deepest relationship
with Hashem. To which degree we succeed in reaching our goal depends upon our
judgement on Rosh Shana. Our final verdict during the Days of Awe, in return,
depends on our attitude – on how much we dare standing firmly, upright and
straight, expressing our higher selves – as we face Hashem with both uttermost
self-confidence as well as with genuine humility.