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Parashat Devarim
How do We Repair the Israelites’ Lack of Emunah?
Tapping Into Flashes of
Experiencing Divine Providence in Our Lives
We need a lot of emunah (faith) to
live in Israel. When we were first married, I tried to make a budget. I would
write our estimated income (Aliyah support, tutoring, my husband’s occasional
private patients…) on one side of the paper and our expenses on the other. No
matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get the numbers to match up. So, I crumbled
the paper and threw it in the garbage, raising my arms to Hashem, praying,
“Hashem please take care of us!” and it worked. I don’t know exactly how since
we both were full-time yeshiva students. Whenever people would ask “How do you
manage financially?” I would raise my head on high and respond: “Hashem!” We
lived this way for seven full years, and this experience – etched so strongly in my soul – has
been imprinting the rest of our lives. Whenever facing thorny challenges not
knowing how to untangle myself from worry and pain, I tap into my latent emunah
buried in my experiential memory of living directly by the hand of Hashem.
Although we know it, our yetzer
hara often makes us forget that Hashem is in charge of everything, and since He
is ultimately good, everything that happens to us must be for the good. When we
feel abandoned to chance, we can strengthen our emunah by tapping into our past
experiences of being keenly aware of the Divine supervision in our lives. This
is one of the main reasons for keeping the Jewish holidays instructing us to
constantly commemorate Hashem’s miracles during the Exodus from Egypt, the
giving of the Torah, the deliverance from the Greeks and from Haman and his
Henchmen etc.
Do we Believe in the Miracles that
we Ourselves have Experienced?
Emunah is not only vital for living
in Israel but is also the main principle of life in general, as it states:
Chabakuk came and established the 613 mitzvot upon one, as it states: “The
righteous person shall live by his faith” (Chabbakuk 2:4); (Babylonian
Talmud Makkot 24a). Yet the Israelites – during their journey in the
wilderness – struggled greatly with their emunah. Although they had experienced
Hashem’s repeated miracles, being nourished by the heavenly manna and quenching
their thirst from the miraculous well, they expressed their wavering faith
through constant complaint and fear of conquering the Promised Land. In the
first chapter of the Book of Devarim, Moshe admonishes the Israelites for their
lack of faith in Hashem their G-d:
ספר דברים פרק א פסוק כט וָאֹמַר אֲלֵכֶם לֹא תַעַרְצוּן
וְלֹא תִירְאוּן מֵהֶם: (ל) הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֵיכֶם הַהֹלֵךְ לִפְנֵיכֶם הוּא יִלָּחֵם
לָכֶם כְּכֹל אֲשֶׁר עָשָׂה אִתְּכֶם בְּמִצְרַיִם לְעֵינֵיכֶם: (לא)
וּבַמִּדְבָּר אֲשֶׁר רָאִיתָ אֲשֶׁר נְשָׂאֲךָ הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ כַּאֲשֶׁר
יִשָּׂא אִישׁ אֶת בְּנוֹ בְּכָל הַדֶּרֶךְ אֲשֶׁר הֲלַכְתֶּם עַד בֹּאֲכֶם עַד
הַמָּקוֹם הַזֶּה:(לב) וּבַדָּבָר הַזֶּה אֵינְכֶם מַאֲמִינִם בַּהָשֵׁם
אֱלֹהֵיכֶם:
“I said to you, “Do not be broken
or afraid of them. Hashem, your G-d, Who goes before you He will fight for you,
just as He did for you in Egypt before your very eyes, and in the desert, where
you have seen how Hashem, your G-d, has carried you as a man carries his son,
all the way that you have gone, until you have come to this place. But
regarding this matter, you do not believe Hashem, your G-d (Devarim
1:29-32).
Why did Moshe say: “In this
matter you do not believe in G-d”? Moshe referred to the miracles when
Hashem lifted the whole Jewish people out of Egypt just as a father carries his
son. Yet, the Israelites did not even believe the miracles they themselves had
experienced. This is alluded to in the Zohar’s well-known parable about
the son who asks a stranger if he has seen his father, being oblivious that his
father is carrying him on his shoulder. This is the meaning of “in this matter you
did not have faith in Hashem your G-d.” In view of the continued miracles
performed constantly by G-d there was no excuse for this lack of faith (Ohr
Hachaim, Devarim 1:32). A child being carried on his father’s shoulders
doesn’t necessarily see his father, likewise whenever we feel a lack of faith
and distanced from Hashem, we are unmindful of Hashem’s perpetual protecting
presence carrying us through the hardships of our lives.
We Need to Strong Rectified Emunah to Enter the
Land of Israel
According to Rashi “this matter” in
which the Israelites lacked belief refers to Hashem’s promises to bring them to
the Land of Israel. Likewise, Rebbe Natan of Breslev expounds: Parashat
Devarim is replete with words of rebuke for the Israelites causing their
own delay to linger in the desert for forty years. This was due to the sin of
the Golden Calf and the sin of the spies who blemished emunah, as it states,
“But regarding this matter, you do not believe Hashem, your G-d (Devarim 1:32).
The main tikkun (rectification) for entering the Land of Israel is emunah. This
is “The strength of His works He related to His people, to give them the
inheritance of the nations” (Tehillim 111:6). Since “the entire earth
belongs to the Almighty; He created it and gave it to whomever He deemed proper,
it follows that when He wished, He gave it to them, and when He wished, He took
it away from them and gave it to us” (Rashi, Bereishit 1:1). Due to the
Israelites’ lack of emunah in this principle, they caused their delay in
entering Israel. This lack of Emunah also brought about the destruction of the
temples and it strengthened the other side to expel the Jewish people from our
land. To this day the nations still say: “You are thieves, by taking hold of
the Land of Israel.” Israel’s blemished emunah in Hashem’s justified power to
give us the Land of Israel empowers their claim. All exiles and destructions
are caused by the Israelites’ lack of emunah in our right to the Land of
Israel. Therefore, we read Parashat Devarim with Moshe’s rebuke about
this matter (Devarim 1:32) the Shabbat before the ninth of Av, when we
mourn for the exiles and destructions of the temples. The following shabbat we
read Parashat Va’etchanan, to draw down the immense gift that Moshe
granted us through his numerous prayers to come to the land of Israel (Likutei
Halachot, Hilchot Chol Hamo’ed, Shomer Sachar 4). The current Aliyah surge
indicates that more and more Jewish people are beginning to believe in our
deserving the Land of Israel. This will with – the help of Hashem – silence the
malicious claims against our inherent right to the Promised Land.
Only Through Emunah Can we Succeed
Whenever we are on the way to
holiness and achieving great achievements, the doubts of ‘the other side’
attempt to confuse us and make us lose our connections with Hashem and kedusha.
To succeed in anything, we must
believe in what we are doing. By strengthening our emunah in Hashem, we can
learn to believe in whatever Hashem guides us to do. EmunaHealing is all about
emunah. To succeed in EmunaHealing it is vital to believe in the power of
spiritual healing. Even if we are beginners and our work is only 40% accurate,
we still need to believe in our ability to channel Hashem’s healing power.
Gradually very gradually we learn to become more accurate, and our channel will
become more and more pure. Without this emunah we will be unable to achieve the
desired results. For example, when I first started doing my annual juice fast,
it didn’t work, because I stopped believing 100% that the juice fast was good
for me. I was not in a supportive environment, my husband the Dr. doesn’t
believe in juice fasts, and people were telling me that I looked horrible… I
became more and more doubtful, and this lack of emunah affected my immune
system, so I contracted an ear infection. In subsequent years, I have learned
to protect myself from negative comments of others and believe in the
efficiency of my annual juice fast to cleanse my body. Baruch Hashem, with this
positive attitude and emunah in what I am doing I have experienced amazing
healing results.
EmunaHealing Exercise for Tuning
into Hashem’s Perpetual, Protective Presence
1. Settle yourself in a beautiful
comfortable place where you can be alone with yourself and with Hashem. Breathe
deeply and become aware of your thoughts.
2. Do you have any fears and
worries that suck your energy and weaken you? Allow all these fearful worried
thoughts to surface into your conscious mind. Explore them without judging
them. Validate their existence and breathe into them.
3. Whenever we harbor negative
thoughts, we are oblivious to Hashem’s presence in our lives. Remind yourself
that Hashem is with you even within your fears and worries. Envision yourself as
a child on the shoulders of your Almighty Father. Until recently you were
unaware that you are riding on Hashem’s shoulders. Now breathe into this image
of being carried by your Almighty Father, feeling supported and cared
for.
4. While continuing to breathe
mindfully recall a potent memory where you clearly felt Hashem’s presence in
your life. What did it feel like when you became aware of the divine
supervision in your personal life. Tune into the feeling of emunah you had
then.
5. Breathe into the emunah you had
when you felt so supported by Hashem and amplify it. Can you tap into this
feeling of faith right now?
6. Now meditate on the miracles you
have experienced in your life, as you tune into your personal miracles imagine
turning up the volume of your emunah as you would turn up the volume on your
speaker or phone.
7. Imagine placing the emunah you
experienced in the past into your handbag and bringing it into your present
life. Can you superimpose your past emunah unto your current fearful and
worried thoughts?
8. If your emunah could speak what
would it tell your fears and worries? Give your emunah its proper voice and
allow it to assuage all your fears and worries. You may want to extend this
speech into a dialogue between your emunah and your negative thoughts. Imagine
how they would respond to your voice of emunah but allow your emunah to get the
last word!
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