Monday, March 20, 2023

What Healing Secret Does the Ba’al Shem Tov Learn from Parashat Vayikra?

 

Parashat Vayikra
What Healing Secret Does the Ba’al Shem Tov Learn from Parashat Vayikra



Being Called to Emulate Moshe and Make Ourselves Small

We are entering the new book of Vayikra – “He called. Hashem” called Moshe into the Tent of Meeting to bestow upon him Divine prophecy. Since Moshe’s soul included all the Jewish souls, is this calling to Moshe also reverberating into our reality? Can we tap into Hashem’s call to us? Perhaps we are all called upon to emulate Moshe’s special character trait of humility, through which he merited prophecy. At this time when we read ourselves of chametz (leavened foods) we are parallelly working on subduing our puffed-up ego. This entails letting go of our rigid, personal perspective to be able to merge with the greater whole. Just as the seed dissolves before the new plant sprouts forth, with true humility and submission we allow ourselves to dissolve into the greater whole of it all. According to the Ba’al Shem Tov, this is the secret of healing, which we learn from the small א/alef in the very first verse of the Book of Vayikra:

ויקרא פרק א פסוק א וַיִּקְרָא אֶל מֹשֶׁה וַיְדַבֵּר הָשֵׂם אֵלָיו מֵאֹהֶל מוֹעֵד לֵאמֹר:
“He called to Moshe, and Hashem spoke to him from the Tent of Meeting, saying” (Vayikra 1:1)

The Secret of the Small א/Alef
The letter א/alef in the first word of the Book of וַיִּקְרָא /Vayikra – ‘He called’ is according to our מָסוֹרָהּ/masorah – ‘tradition’ small. Whereas big letters as in שְׁמַע/Shema indicate greatness and elevation, the small alef teaches us smallness, contraction, and submission. Moshe is known for being lowly in his own eyes. Hashem chose him due to this humility. He honored Moshe by calling him alone to the Tent of Meeting, to speak with Him. This is hinted in the small א/alef which almost disappears so that the word can be read without it as וַיִּקָר/vayikar – ‘Honor’ (Megillat Esther 8:16). Hashem granted Moshe this great honor because he considered himself so small. By lowering himself, he achieved great heights (Maor v’Shemesh, Parashat Vayikra). The Ba’al Shem Tov learned all his knowledge of healing from the verse, “He called to Moshe….” (Ba’al Shem tov on Parashat Vayikra). According to the Ba’al Shem tov, the small א/alef of וַיִּקְרָא/Vayikra indicates that Moshe merited the secret of אָיִן/ayin – ‘nothingness,’ which is the 50th gate of בִּינָה/Binah – ‘Understanding.’ “Fifty gates of understanding were created in the world, and all of them were given to Moshe, except for one” (Babylonian Talmud, Rosh Hashana 21b). Why didn’t the Talmud simply write that Moshe was given 49 gates of understanding? This is because Moshe received the fiftieth gate of understanding just before his death, as it states, “Moshe went up to the planes of Moav to Mount Nevo” (Devarim 34:1). נְבוֹ/Nevo indicates: נ/nun is בּוֹ/bo – ‘in him.’ Whereas Moshe merited the fiftieth gate of understanding when he received the Torah at Sinai, this was only as surrounding lights. Only at his deathbed did Moshe receive the fiftieth gate of understanding as inner lights within him. This is the secret of אָיִן/ayin – ‘nothingness.’  

Between אֲנִי/Ani – ‘I’ and אָיִן/Ayin – ‘Nothingness’ 
The two words אָיִן/ayin and אֲנִי/ani – ‘I’ consist of the same letters, yet their meaning is opposite. Whereas the word ani – ‘I’ is about expression, ayin is about dissolving and inclusion in the root. The numerical value of the name of Hashem spelled out with alef יוד -הא-ואו-הא has the numerical value of אָדָם/Adam – ‘human’ (45), which refers to the vessel. Every vessel needs light to achieve its perfection. When you add the four letters of Hashem’s Name itself to Adam, you get 49, the numerical value as the word חוֹלֶה/choleh – ‘sick.’ Adam still lacks the crown of the yud to achieve the perfection of the fiftieth gate – the root of all. Thus, the root of sickness is that we lack the fiftieth gate of ayin – ‘nothing.’ The secret of health is not self-expression but rather self-effacement. It is not the ani – ‘I’ but rather the ayin – ‘nothingness.’ Sometimes people are committed to serving Hashem, yet they lack submission and lowliness because people 
generally seek self-expression. When they aren’t able to express themselves, they may get sick. The greatest healing and redemption are when we are able to humble and surrender ourselves. By means of drawing upon ourselves the fiftieth gate, we can be healed from any illness. This is the inclusion of the name יוד -הא-ואו-הא when including the four letters of the Name and the Name itself, which together adds up to the fiftieth gate called אָיִן/ayin – ‘nothing.’ When we elevate the judgments to the gate of ayin – ‘nothing,’ they become rectified. This is because the brokenness of judgments can only exist in the forty-nine gates of this fragmented world. Yet, everything becomes unified in the fiftieth gate of nothingness. There can be no breaking in this root of existence, which is complete compassion. 

Placing Submission Before Understanding
Each of the three letters that both the word Ani – ‘I’ and Ayin – ‘nothingness’ share has its own meaning. אלף/Alef refers to אַלּוּפוֹ/alufo – ‘the Master of the world,’ יוּד /yudchachma meaning inner wisdom – submission, נוּן/nunbinah – corresponding to the fifty gates of understanding. Had the first man eaten first from the Tree of Life – the yud of wisdom, and only afterwards from the Tree of Knowledge – the nun of understanding, then the letters alef-yud-nun spelling out the word ayin – ‘nothingness’ would have been in their right order.  Adam would then have achieved eternal life. However, by first eating from the Tree of Knowledge, the first man created a different order: alef-nun-yud spelling out the word ani – ‘I.’ By placing the nun of understanding before the yud of submission, the first man caused the upper abundance to flow down in an incorrect order, both on the physical and spiritual level. This causes situations of illness and death, G-d forbid. The reason why Hashem didn’t allow the first man to eat from the Tree of Life was to ensure that the yetzer hara (negative impulse), causing illness and death, G-d forbid, would not endure forever. 

Unifying and Raising the Shechina to the Level of Ayin – Nothingness
How do we treat sickness resulting from the toxic Tree of Knowledge? Illness can be healed when we set an intention to draw the gate of nun upon us. This is including the name of Hashem – יוד -הא-ואו-הא, which has the numerical value of forty-nine inside of the general name itself, making it add up to fifty – the fiftieth gate of understanding that lifts us from individual existence into the unified realm of nothingness. In other words, illness is healed by means of submission and humility before Hashem, thus becoming included in the root of all. The Ba’al Shem Tov further explains the Talmudic dictum, “whoever prays on behalf of his friend is answered first” (Baba Kama 32a). What is the reason that the person praying is specifically answered first? This is because the person praying for his friend needs to raise the judgments to their root. In order to do this, the person praying must be in that place first. Only afterward can he draw the sick person there as well. This explains why the one praying is answered first. Rabbi Menachem Nachum of Chernobyl testified that the Ba’al Shem Tov during his healing was able to elevate his soul to the highest concealed place by means of unifications. He would unify and raise the Shechina to the level of ayin – nothingness (Maor Einayim, Parashat Naso). Based on Rav Daniel Stavsky, Parashat Vayikra, Year 7582.

EmunaHealing Exercise for Becoming Submissive to the Above
1. Place yourself in a comfortable position, without any tight-fitting clothes. You may open any buttons of your garments to feel more at ease and free.
2. Breathe deeply and mindfully, inhaling through your nose and exhaling through your mouth. As you keep breathing slowly allow all thoughts to pass through you until you experience a certain tranquility and stillness within you.
3. Recite within your mind’s heart מִי אֲנִי מָה אֲנִי/mi ani? mah ani? – ‘Who am I? What am I?’
Breathe into mi ani? Breathe out of mah ani? several times without counting. Allow yourself to relax into a rhythmical breathing of these questions: mi ani? mah ani? Keep repeating the questions, as you view yourself engaging in the activities in which you usually express yourself.
4. Perhaps an answer reveals itself to you. It could be an image, a word, a feeling… a combination of all, or something completely different altogether.
5. You are seeing/hearing/feeling yourself from an outsider’s perspective. Each expression of self conceals an inner layer of unexpressed self. You are not your revealed ‘you.’ Who are you? Visualize your body, your head, shoulders, trunk, arms, and legs… Is this you? mi ani? mah ani?
6. Are you limited to your expressions in this lifetime?  Who were you in your prior incarnations, and who will you become in future reincarnations? The boundaries of your unique ‘I-ness’ are becoming blurry. Mi ani? mah ani?
7. Visualize the dissolvement of your body, your, head, shoulders, trunk, arms legs, feet, and hands. “I am not my body” Mi ani? mah ani?
8. Now envision the innumerable people in the endless soul pool, all part of the infinite eternal Divine presence. Imagine being pulled upwards like a helium balloon, soaring higher and higher, letting go more and more of you Ani – your I-center. Envision your helium- balloon-self becoming smaller and small until it becomes just one dot in the vast sky, and then completely disappears.
9. Am I all the things I do? Am I all the things I say? Who am I? Mi ani? Mah ani? Perhaps a gust of wind, a puff of air, a yearning to give and receive love and compassion?
10. I am not the things I do, nor the things I say. All of these individual expressions of myself are dissolving into the greater good. G-d is good, G-d is unified through the dissolvement of our individual barriers.  I am not me. I am not. I am All.
11. As you slowly open your eyes, return to yourself with a realization that your higher root is within the greater good of the unified All.

1 comment:

  1. This is a very esoteric teaching, to be absorbed at a special time &when you are in the right frame of mind. I hope all your readers are!

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