This Haftorah of Repentance teach us about repairing the gap between our head and the rest of our being, between Hashem’s Infinite Light and His revelation in the world. Read on to learn about the Feminine characteristic of Teshuvah (repentance). Wishing you the greatest Teshuvah – return to your essential self which is intimately in tune with Hashem’s infinite light.
Giving Birth to the Coming Year
Returning the Heh
The word for repentance: “Teshuvah” – תשובה can be understood to mean תשוב-ה “teshuv-heh” – return the heh in Hashem’s four lettered Name consisting of the Hebrew letters, yud, heh and vav and heh. Each of the Ten Sefirot (manifestations of Hashem’s light in the world) corresponds to one of the letters in this Holy Name. The yud corresponds to the sefirah called Chochmah (Wisdom), while the first heh corresponds to Binah (Analytic Insight). The vav is associated with the six middle sefirot from Chesed (Kindness) to Yesod (Foundation), while the final heh corresponds to Malchut (Royalty). According to Arizal, a sin separates between the final heh and the remaining three letters in Hashem’s name. This can be remedied by teshuvah, which causes the heh to return to its rightful place (Sha'ar HaGilgulim, Chapter 21).
Healing the Gap between Heaven and Earth
The separation of the lower heh of Hashem’s Name is manifested by a separation between the spiritual and the physical, our good intentions and our holy actions. The main raison d’etre of Amalek, the arch enemy of Israel, is to separate between Heaven and Earth between Hashem and the world. The Christians, likewise, separate between spirituality and physicality. They promulgate monkhood and celibacy to be the highest religious goal. As we are moving deeper into the Messianic Era, the gap between Heaven and Earth is gradually being healed. For example, in our time we experience a great awakening regarding mindful eating. While being engaged in the most physical of all actions, a person must aspire to connect with Hashem, his spiritual source. According to the Rebbe of Biala, through holy eating a person may achieve greater spiritual rectifications than through tefilah (prayer) (A Person’s Table Atones, Chapter 1, Page 7). Perhaps, the reason for this is that through connecting the physical with the spiritual we repair the breach between the heh in Hashem’s name and the rest of its letters.
Twofold Return – to Rectify both Action and Feeling
The Reishit Chachma explains that there are two kinds of teshuvah. The Lower Teshuvah – ((תשובה תתאה corresponds to the last heh of Hashem’s name whereas the Upper Teshuvah –(תשובה עילאה) corresponds to the first heh of Hashem’s name. The Lower Teshuvah has the power to eradicate the sin, and is motivated by fear. However, the Higher Teshuvah which is motivated by love has the power to transform sin into merit. Malbim explains that the prophet urges us to return twice corresponding to these two kinds of Teshuvah. The Lower Teshuvah is described in verse two as “until – עַד Hashem”, whereas the Higher Teshuvah is described in the following verse, “Take words with you and return into – אֵל Hashem” (Ibid 3). The words we are to take with us are the reports of the good deeds we performed through the Lower Teshuvah, which will propel us to “return/repent” a second time on a deeper level, penetrating the foreskin of our heart that blocks us from feeling Hashem’s love. Through this Highest Teshuvah we will become a pure channel, ready for prophesy, completely in tune with Hashem’s will. Only then will Hashem “Forgive all sin…” (ibid.), including the unintentional sins. Moreover “He will take what is good…” (Ibid.), this is the sin that has now been transformed to merit and become totally good.
The Feminine Nature of Repentance and Rebirth
The two heh’s ה in Hashem’s Name are considered feminine letters as opposed to the remaining letters of the yud י and the vav ו which are masculine. The shape of both of the masculine letters is linear, the yud forms a small line, and the vav is an extended straight line. The heh’s, however, are wider and more complex with an opening both below and above. To be straight is a masculine virtue. This includes remaining within the straight line of the exact boundaries of time and space, as required by the positive time-bound mitzvoth such as praying in a Minyan at the prescribed time, and shaking the lulav every day during the holiday of Sukkot. Picking oneself up after having fallen is a feminine quality. Women who experience their natural cyclic changes are mothers of invention, positive change and transformation. Flexibility, creativity and ability to think out of the box are employed in the teshuvah process. Unhealthy, failing routines are altered accordingly. Mothers are mistresses of teshuvah through which we give birth to our renewed selves. Breathing is also vital in the birthing process. Therefore, the letter heh which has the sound of the breath is imbued with procreative powers. In order for Avraham’s wife, Sarah, to be able to give birth, the masculine yud of her previous name was exchanged with the feminine birthing heh. (Kli Yakar Bereishit 17:15) It is this same breath of the letter heh which preceding each of the Ten Sayings that gave birth to the world. Hashem indeed created this world with the letter heh (Rashi Bereishit 2:4). Just as the heh is open at the top, so is this world open to those who return in teshuvah (Babylonian Talmud, Menahot 29b).
May we take advantage of these days of gestation to breathe new life into our rigid negative habits, and may we employ our feminine flexibility to transform them in true teshuvah and spiritual rebirth!G’mar Chatimah Tovah!
May we be sealed for a Good Year!