Showing posts with label Parashat Nitzavim. Show all posts
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Thursday, September 18, 2025

Parashat Nitzavim: How is our Personal Teshuva (Return) Intertwined with Returning to the Land of Israel?


Parashat Nitzavim
How is our Personal Teshuva (Return) Intertwined with Returning to the Land of Israel?

What are Some Perimeters of “Every Jew is Responsible For One Another”?
The importance of community and our responsibility toward it was instilled in me from early childhood. It has always been clear to me that we do not live in a vacuum; every choice we make sends ripples through the world around us. It is hard to single out particular lessons from my parents, because this principle permeated everything we were taught. Just as it is self-evident that if someone carves a hole under his private seat in a ship, the entire vessel will sink, so it was obvious to my sisters and me never to leave garbage in a public space.
After becoming mitzvah observant, I learned how the Torah takes this sense of shared responsibility far deeper. We are not only accountable for our own deeds – such as refraining from tossing a candy wrapper on the street – but, in a mysterious and holy way, we are also bound to the actions of every other Jew. Kol Yisrael arevim zeh bazeh – “Every Jew is Responsible For One Another” means more than being a good example. On a simple level, our habits inevitably influence those around us. If we live in a community where no one litters, that atmosphere shapes our own behavior. If kindness and generosity are the norm, they draw similar responses in us.
Yet on a deeper plane, our souls are intertwined. The Ba’al Shem Tov teaches that when we notice another person faltering, it is not random. Hashem has shown it to us so that we can look within. Perhaps we harbor even a subtle trace of the same weakness? When we identify that trace and do teshuva for it, we open a spiritual channel that helps the other person return as well. Our private inner work, unseen by others, becomes a hidden support for their growth.
Rav Kook adds a further dimension tied to the Land of Israel itself. If one Jew yearns intensely for Eretz Yisrael – even without speaking a word – that quiet yearning can awaken the courage to make Aliyah in another Jew. In this way, the unseen longings of a single heart help gather the exiles and advance the redemption of the entire people.
This is the deeper meaning of “every Jew is responsible for one another.” We are a single, living organism; each action, each prayer, each inner movement of teshuva resonates through the whole. Whether through small habits of care for public spaces, heartfelt repentance for subtle faults, or silent yearning for our homeland, our individual efforts weave together the destiny of Israel.

Why was the Covenant of Mutual Responsibility Established as we Entered the Land?
ספר דברים פרק כט פסוק ט
אַתֶּם נִצָּבִים הַיּוֹם כֻּלְּכֶם לִפְנֵי הַשֵׁם אֱלֹהֵיכֶם רָאשֵׁיכֶם שִׁבְטֵיכֶם זִקְנֵיכֶם וְשֹׁטְרֵיכֶם כֹּל אִישׁ יִשְׂרָאֵל:
“You are standing today, all of you, before Hashem your G-d: the heads of your tribes, your elders and your officers, every person of Israel” (Devarim 29:9).

On the very last day of his life, as the nation stood poised to enter the Land of Israel, Moshe gathered the entire people and entered them into a covenant with Hashem that binds all of Israel in mutual responsibility. Rabbi Moshe Schreiber, the Chatam Sofer, explains that the covenant of “Atem nitzavim hayom kulchem” – “You are standing today, all of you” – establishes the principle of Kol Yisrael arevim zeh bazeh – all Jews are bound together in accountability for one another. Hidden sins remain known only to Hashem, but what is revealed becomes the charge of the entire nation, because the deeds, both mitzvot and failings, of each Jew affect everyone.
This deep spiritual oneness gives practical power to the community: one Jew can fulfill a mitzvah on behalf of others, and a communal positive command can override an individual one, because every Jew shares in the mitzvot of the whole. The Rabbi adds that love of Torah and trust in teshuva are essential to sustain this covenant, for when people learn Torah without heartfelt gratitude for the gift of Torah or doubt the power of repentance, they weaken the protective merit of mutual responsibility. Through this collective commitment and teshuva, Israel draws the Divine promise of redemption and the ingathering of exiles, showing that the covenant of arvut (mutual responsibility) is both the spiritual and practical foundation of Jewish unity in the Land of Israel (Chatam Sofer, Devarim 29:9).
From Covenant to Redemption
Immediately following the covenant of mutual responsibility, Moshe reveals the next stage of Israel’s destiny:

ספר דברים פרק ל פסוק א וְהָיָה כִי יָבֹאוּ עָלֶיךָ כָּל הַדְּבָרִים הָאֵלֶּה הַבְּרָכָה וְהַקְּלָלָה אֲשֶׁר נָתַתִּי לְפָנֶיךָ וַהֲשֵׁבֹתָ אֶל לְבָבֶךָ בְּכָל הַגּוֹיִם אֲשֶׁר הִדִּיחֲךָ הַשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ שָׁמָּה :ב) וְשַׁבְתָּ עַד הַשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ וְשָׁמַעְתָּ בְקֹלוֹ כְּכֹל אֲשֶׁר אָנֹכִי מְצַוְּךָ הַיּוֹם אַתָּה וּבָנֶיךָ בְּכָל לְבָבְךָ וּבְכָל נַפְשֶׁךָ :ג) וְשָׁב הַשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ אֶת שְׁבוּתְךָ וְרִחֲמֶךָ וְשָׁב וְקִבֶּצְךָ מִכָּל הָעַמִּים אֲשֶׁר הֱפִיצְךָ הַשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ שָׁמָּה:
“It shall be, when all these things come upon you – the blessing and the curse that I have set before you – and you take them to heart among all the nations where Hashem your G-d has driven you, and you return to Hashem your G-d with all your heart and with all your soul… then Hashem your G-d will return your captivity and have compassion on you, and He will return and gather you from all the peoples where Hashem your G-d has scattered you” (Devarim 30:1-3).

The first ten verses of chapter 30 in the Book of Devarim is one of my favorite sections in the Torah because it speaks so deeply to my soul about Hashem’s compassion and about how returning to Him is inseparable from returning to the Land of Israel. The root שׁוּב/shuv – “return” echoes seven times in these verses (Devarim 30:1-9), creating a rhythm of gradual yet unstoppable redemption. First, Israel awakens and returns to Hashem; then Hashem Himself “returns” with us, gathering His people from every corner of the earth. Rashi explains that the Shechinah so fully shares our exile that the Torah speaks of Hashem Himself returning: the day of ingathering will be so momentous and so challenging that “it is as though Hashem Himself must literally take each individual Jew with His very hands out of exile (Rashi, Devarim 30:3).
I also noticed that in this entire section, the four-lettered Name of Hashem, which conveys compassion and miracles, appears twelve times, perhaps hinting at His enduring bond with the twelve tribes whom He will gather in from the furthest corners of the world.
The verses trace a graceful dance of teshuva from level to level: “Even if your exiles are at the end of the heavens, Hashem your G-d will gather you, and from there He will take you. Hashem, your G-d will bring you into the land that your patriarchs possessed, and you shall possess it; He will make you prosper and multiply you more than your fathers. Hashem your G-d will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, to love Hashem your G-d with all your heart and with all your soul, so that you may live… because you return to Hashem your God with all your heart and with all your soul” (Devarim 30:4-10).

Why Does Hashem Circumcise our Hearts After we Enter the Holy Land?
What does it mean that Hashem will “circumcise our hearts”? Clearly, this is not referring to open-heart surgery. Rather, it is the gradual removal of the inner “foreskin” of resentments, fears, and hardened feelings so that we can love one another and love Hashem wholeheartedly. Earlier, the Torah commanded, “You must circumcise the orlah (foreskin) of your hearts and be no longer stiff-necked” (Devarim 10:16). Our work to soften our hearts and clear away negativity pertains even while still in exile. Yet, only after Hashem brings us back to our land does He promise to complete the process Himself, as it says, “Hashem your G-d will circumcise your heart” (30:6).
This teaches that the final stage of geulah, complete redemption, depends on both human initiative and Divine action. We must begin by removing the emotional and spiritual barriers that separate us from Hashem and from each other. When we do, Hashem responds by transforming our very nature, enabling us to return to Him with a love so deep and whole that it can only be fully revealed in Eretz Yisrael, the place where His covenant with us comes to complete fruition.

Why Can the Highest Stage of Teshuva be Fulfilled Only in The Land of Israel?
Our section describes two dimensions of teshuva. In verse 2, we are called to return עד/ad – “until Hashem your G-d,” while in verse 10, after being gathered into the Land of Israel, we are promised the ability to return אל/el – “unto Hashem your G-d with all your heart and with all your soul.” The difference is striking. Returning עד/ad Hashem is the inner, personal turning to G-d that we can achieve anywhere: we refrain from wrongdoing, begin to keep mitzvot, and draw near to Him. Yet this first stage still carries the sense of only approaching Hashem, whereas “returning אל/el unto Hashem” points to the collective return to the Land of Israel. Only with Divine help in the Land of Israel are we empowered to attain the second stage, el Hashem, a full embrace and oneness with His will. This is the highest level of teshuva, possible only in Eretz Yisrael, the dwelling place of the Shechinah.
Our spiritual teshuva and our physical ingathering are inseparable. They move together as one redemptive process. Moshe’s words even include “whoever is not here with us today,” showing that every generation is bound to this covenant and destined to be gathered in. The call to return, therefore, transcends time and geography, yet it is anchored in the Land of Israel, where the covenant is ultimately lived. Each Jew who returns to the land fulfills that ancient oath and weaves his or her own life into the eternal fabric of the nation.
Standing together before Hashem in our own land is the deepest preparation for Rosh Hashanah, which always follows Parashat Nitzavim. As we crown Hashem King, we reaffirm that our personal return and the collective destiny of Israel are one. In this way, the covenant of mutual responsibility and the promise of complete teshuva find their true fulfillment in Eretz Yisrael, where Hashem’s presence dwells and the final stage of redemption unfolds.

Wednesday, September 25, 2024

Parashat Nitzavim-Vayelech: How Do We Reveal Hashem’s Presence Within the Darkest Darkness?

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Parashat Nitzavim-Vayelech
How Do We Reveal Hashem’s Presence Within the Darkest Darkness? 



What blocks the Divine Light from illuminating my Life and making it fruitful?
This morning, as I examined my vegetable patch in my back garden, I noticed that the pepper plants I had planted a while back were all alive and growing, but none sprouted a single pepper fruit. In the past, I was able to grow an abundance of cherry tomatoes and pepper fruits in that same spot. What had changed? I lifted my face upward and noticed how both the mulberry and the pecan trees had grown to become humongous, overhanging and shading my little vegetable patch. These trees were hiding all the light from my poor vegetables, preventing them from truly flourishing. At times we can all identify with my unproductive pepper plants. We may be working hard to grow and let grow, trying many different avenues, but something is blocked. We may bump into one iron barricade after the other, each one seemingly more impenetrable. “Why? Why is this happening to me?” We ask ourselves. “What does Hashem want from me?” It all comes down to bringing more light into our lives. Light is the most essential element for all growth. Just as my pepper plants need light to produce fruits, we also need to unblock all the iron barricades that block the light from shining through. “Yes,” I’m thinking to myself, “I will need to have the trees pruned to let in the light.” But what are ‘the trees’ in my life that block the light from entering my personal path? Now before Rosh Hashana is the time to reflect on our lives and return to Hashem, to allow His Divine Light to penetrate our mind, body, and soul. Especially at this time, we all need to ask ourselves, How can I open the physical, emotional, and spiritual blocks that prevent me from letting Hashem’s light enter? Which thoughts, speech, or actions block the Divine Light from illuminating my life and making it fruitful?

Can We Temper Our Desire for the Revelation of the Final Redemption?
With the war in Israel lingering on, it is easy to lose hope. Never in the history of the State of Israel have we undergone such an extended war. Although we experience glimpses of Hashem’s light shining through the miracles He performs and the victories He generates for us, it is still hard to stay connected to the Light of Hashem through all the pain of accumulated burials of young life before yielding fruit. How can we bear the increasing number of widows, orphans, and soldiers wounded for life? It is like the pressure is building up, and we are almost exploding in our yearning for Hashem to reveal ALL His light and bring us Geulah (the final redemption) already. Little glimpses of light are not enough. “We want Mashiach now, we don’t want to wait!” In the past, I didn’t connect to this song, as Rambam clearly states that we patiently must await the Mashiach, so how could we demand him to come now?  

“Anyone who does not believe in him, or does not await his coming, denies not only the statements of the other prophets but those of the Torah and Moshe, our teacher. The Torah testified to his coming, as it states:

“G-d will bring back your captivity and have mercy upon you. He will again gather you from among the nations... Even if your Diaspora is at the ends of the heavens, G-d will gather you up from there... and bring you to the land...” (Devarim 30-3-5). These explicit words of the Torah include all the statements made by all the prophets Rambam, Mishnah Torah, Hilchot Melachim 11:1).

I understood these laws of the Rambam to refer to the  B’nei Efraim who met their early death because they left Egypt before its time, as Rashi explains based on the Mechilta: “…They slew the children of Efraim, who hastened the end and went out [of Egypt] forcibly, as delineated in (I Divrei Hayamim 7:21-22); (Rashi, Shemot 15:14). Based on the Rambam and the story of the B’nei Efraim, I believe that we must be patient and not push for Mashiach before it’s time, just like we cannot push out the baby before the womb is sufficiently dilated. Yet, on the other hand, something is happening in Israel that is beyond the rational. The tension is building up so strongly that it’s impossible to be patient, for we cannot temper our desire to finally release this built-up tension through the revelation of the final redemption.

Overcoming the Tendency to Believe That G-D is no Longer in Our Midst
How will we reveal Hashem’s light to dwell among us? To answer this question, we must ask ourselves, “What caused the darkness in the first place?” Parashat Vayelech gives us a clue:

ספר דברים פרק לא  פסוק יז וְחָרָה אַפִּי בוֹ בַיּוֹם הַהוּא וַעֲזַבְתִּים וְהִסְתַּרְתִּי פָנַי מֵהֶם וְהָיָה לֶאֱכֹל וּמְצָאֻהוּ רָעוֹת רַבּוֹת וְצָרוֹת וְאָמַר בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא הֲלֹא עַל כִּי אֵין אֱלֹהַי בְּקִרְבִּי מְצָאוּנִי הָרָעוֹת הָאֵלֶּה(יח) וְאָנֹכִי הַסְתֵּר אַסְתִּיר פָּנַי בַּיּוֹם הַהוּא עַל כָּל הָרָעָה אֲשֶׁר עָשָׂה כִּי פָנָה אֶל אֱלֹהִים אֲחֵרִים:
“Then My fury will rage against them on that day, and I will abandon them and hide My face from them, and they will be consumed, and many evils and troubles will befall them, and they will say on that day, ‘Is it not because our G-d is no longer in my midst, that these evils have befallen me?’ I will hide My face on that day, because of all the evil they have committed, when they turned to other deities” (Devarim 31:17-18).

According to Netivot Shalom, when the Jewish people experienced trouble, they complained that the source of their troubles was that G-d no longer was in their midst. Rather than feeling pain for their essential separation from G-d, their pain was due to the troubles they experienced. They were focusing on the pain of their troubles and blaming them on G-d’s withdrawing His Presence, rather than focusing on the pain of losing their closeness to G-d. By accepting that G-d was no longer in their midst as an unchangeable fact, they showed a lack of emunah that Hashem always dwells among us even within our impurity (Vayikra 16:17). Since every Jew is a part of the Divine, no power can disconnect us from our Heavenly Father, unless we want to disconnect, G-d forbid. Hashem’s hiding His face is like a father who sometimes hides himself from his son, without abandoning him even for a moment. He just wants to test His son, for the wise son knows that it can’t be that his Father would forsake him. Rather he believes that Hashem always watches over him with Divine supervision. Even if he, (G-d forbid) committed the worst kind of sin, he must believe that Hashem always accepts his heartfelt penitent prayer. The main goal of the yetzer hara (negative impulse) is not to make someone sin, rather it is to cause a feeling of despair following the sin, to make him feel that G-d has completely forsaken him due to his depravity. We must be strong against this temptation of despair and believe that Hashem never forsakes us. He only hides His face from us. Therefore, the biggest flaw is not the sin in itself – however severe – but the faulty belief that “G-d is no longer in my midst” which brings about the ripple effect that “G-d will hide His face on that day…” The double languageהַסְתֵּר אַסְתִּיר /haster astir – “hide, I will hide” corresponds to the double hiding, due to the sin itself, but even more so due to the sin of falling into despair.

The Shechinah Resides Within the Darkest Partitions
The dividing walls we experience between us and Hashem are caused by lust, bad character traits, annoyances due to worldly matters, and grief caused by painful experiences. Each of these comprises a dividing wall blocking us from reaching our Blessed Creator. Yet, none of these dividing partitions are as troublesome as the partition implanted in a Jew’s heart making him believe he is far from Hashem. Falling prey to despair that there is no healing for feeling separated from Hashem, G-d forbid, results in truly moving away and disconnecting from Hashem’s presence. This faulty belief is the hardest dividing wall, worse than the separations caused by lust or confusion. We must strengthen our belief that all the dividing walls are only illusions. We do have the ability to skip over them all and reveal the King. “From the depths of the husks we can call out to Hashem, as it states, “From the depths I have called You, O Hashem.” (Tehillim 130:1). Even an iron barricade cannot separate between Israel and our Heavenly Father. “But Hashem took you and brought you out of the iron pot, out of Egypt, to be His people” (Devarim 4:20). Even if a Jew sins, he always remains a Jew (Babylonian Talmud, Sanhedrin 44a).  During the revelation at Sinai, there were three partitions of darkness hiding Hashem: חֹשֶׁךְ/Chosheh – “darkness,” עָנָן/anan – “cloud,” and עֲרָפֶל/arafel “thick fog” or “thick darkness” (Devarim 4:11). The latter was the densest of all the separations. Nevertheless, “Moshe drew near to the thick darkness where G-d was” (Shemot 20:18). In order to come close to Hashem we need to go through each of the three dark partitions while believing with steadfast emunah that it is precisely within the darkest darkness that we can find Hashem. The numerical value of the Hebrew word הָעֲרָפֶל/ha’arafel – ‘thick fog’ equals הַשְּׁכִינָה/HaShechinah – ‘the Shechinah.’ As King Shlomo proclaimed, “Hashem said that He would dwell in the עֲרָפֶל/arafel – ‘thick darkness” (I Melachim 8:12). Likewise, Moshe revealed that it is specifically within the very darkest darkness that G-d resides! So instead of moaning over feeling separated from Hashem through iron barricades, we can be grateful for the dividing walls which can serve as portals to get even closer to the light of the Divine indwelling Presence hiding precisely within the darkest dividing wall. The more we strengthen our emunah that the Divine light is found within our darkness, the more we will be able to reveal the light!

Gratitude Focus for the Week of Parashat Vayelech –
Tips on Unblocking the Dark Dividing Walls that Separate Between Us and G-d

Hashem incorporated in creation, day and night – light and darkness. It is natural to experience ups and downs – ebbs and flows of closeness and separation from Hashem. The lows help us appreciate the highs so much more. While it is challenging to experience the hiding of Hashem’s Face in our lives, it helps when we remember that this spiritual darkness is part of a movement toward the light, without night we wouldn’t even notice the break of day. Like the waves in the ocean, at times we rise to our peak, and at other times we fall down in a thunderous crash. Life is about riding the waves, not allowing ourselves to go under – by being swallowed by the darkest sea-bed in a bone-breaking crash. Rather we must keep riding the waves as the cycle continues until the tide changes in gloaming light. Below are some practical tips for riding the waves, to reveal His light even within the darkest dark.

·       When You Open Your Eyes in the Morning, Recite Modeh Ani With Thankful Intentions – that Hashem woke you up from the darkness of night, to offer you a new delightful day. Awake with belief in G-d, for He believes in you and grants you another day to search for and discover His light. Hashem is playing the hide-and-seek game we used to play as kids. Let’s tackle the challenge with childish playfulness and gratitude.

·       Amplify and Spread Hashem’s Light by Reaching out to Others – There is no sweeter medicine for a bitter soul than to do a mitzvah and kindness for others. Visiting a sick person, helping take care of her needs, welcoming a new neighbor with a fruit basket, baking a cake for a simcha (happy occasion), and supporting a needy person. These are just a few examples of how you can elevate yourself through raising others.

·       Count Your Blessings and be Thankful for Being in a Better Place – Recalling even the little drops of goodness in your life will help you feel closer to Hashem, the Source of your blessings. I love this story of Rachel and Rabbi Akiva: When the daughter of Kalba Shavu’a betrothed herself to Rabbi Akiva, her father vowed to dispossess her. The young couple were so poor they had to sleep on straw, and Rabbi Akiva had to pick out the straw from his hair… Later Eliyahu came to them in the guise of a beggar who cried out at the door: “Give me some straw, for my wife in her confinement. I have nothing for her to lie on.” “See!” Rabbi Akiva observed to his wife, “There is even someone poorer than us, this man who lacks even straw” (Babylonian Talmud, Nedarim 50a).

·       Speak to Hashem and Call Him to Come out of His Hiding – If you feel far from Hashem, and are stumbling over walls of division, cry out from the depth of your desperation. Your yearning for Divine revelation will draw the Divine presence to you and uncover His hiding. Use your darkest moments as a springboard to bring about the greatest revelations in your life!

Wednesday, September 1, 2021

Why Does Torah Bring Healing to the World?
















Parashat Nitzavim
 
Returning to My Spiritual Roots and my Inner Self
As a teenager, I was searching for meaning. I felt that the society in which I grew up, and its values were meaningless. As I entered seventh grade, I began to question all the values of the environment in which I had been raised. The Judaism, to which I had been exposed, seemed like an empty, hypocritical religion. People, who called themselves religious, would drive to the synagogue on Shabbat and park the car a few minutes walk away, to pretend they had walked the entire distance. Of course, no one believed they had actually walked the 25 kilometers from their green suburb to the synagogue located in the heart of Copenhagen. Only the elderly came to the synagogue to pray, while the vast majority came to socialize and to show off their newest outfit. I was searching for deeper values. Simultaneously, I was also searching for myself. I had no idea who I really was, or what my mission was, for which I was sent into the world. Moreover, I was ignorant of what it truly meant to be a Jew. I felt empty inside, and I was yearning for a truth that would fill this vacuum within me. Many of my friends had searched in the Far East, and I too was attracted to the mystic, meditative innerness of the Eastern traditions. Yet, something was missing. It just didn’t resonate right. Only in the holy land, did I find Hashem and my soul. At the Western Wall, I just stood mesmerized – in awe of the sense of sanctity that pervaded the place – without a word of prayer crystallizing on my lips. The intense light reflected by the ancient stones penetrated into the empty space in my very heart and soul. I enjoyed the feeling of being among Jews. Everyone around me seemed like family.
In the Torah world, I learned a new perspective on freedom. Real freedom is being true to our inner selves. Here in the heart of the land of my soul, I was finally uncovering my spiritual roots. My first Shabbat overlooking the temple mount was life-changing. I was led to a room where two silver candlesticks awaited me. An older student taught me to say the blessing, and I lit the candles. As I gazed at the lights of the Shabbat candles, the world was transformed. The room was aglow with holiness and serenity as if we had entered a higher realm of existence. It struck me that here was the expanded consciousness, that I had been searching for all along. I had never expected to find it within my own tradition. Here, I was no longer a stranger exploring other people and places. I saw truth very clearly for the first time, and it was a truth to which I belonged. I would keep learning and exploring together with others like myself. I had finally come home (Exert from My Ba’al Teshuva Story, for a free full copy please email director@berotbatayin.org).

The Healing Process of Teshuva Unites Our Broken Heart with Divine Delight
Just as in my case, countless other Jews – of my generation and of those succeeding it – have embarked on the path of return to Judaism. Teshuva begins by seeking the truth, searching for who I am, and why I am here. There are many people on the road, seeking answers to their questions. Together with teshuva, many people search for natural healing alternatives. Both of these phenomena go hand-in-hand. The sages teach that there is a strong connection between teshuvah and healing:
תלמוד בבלי מסכת יומא דף פו/א
...אמר רבי חמא (בר) [ברבי] חנינא גדולה תשובה שמביאה רפאות לעולם שנאמר ארפא משובתם אהבם נדבה
Great is teshuva for it brings healing to the world, and an individual who repents is forgiven and the whole world is forgiven with him (Yoma 86a).
 
“G-d is the healer of all flesh Who connects our souls to our bodies. If we want to be healthy, we need to be in touch with Hashem, Who says, “I am Hashem, your Healer” (Shemot 15:26; Rav Yitzchak Ginsburg, Gal Einai). While trying to understand the deeper connection between teshuva and healing, the following words of Rav Kook resonate and reflect well my personal teshuva process: “Our soul climbs upward until we are freed from enslavement to the sin. We feel within ourselves the holy freedom, which is so pleasant to our weary soul. And we grow progressively healed…” (Rav Kook, Orot HaTeshuva 5). Before I came to Torah, I suffered from severe, painful, itching skin rashes, which fortunately were healed, as soon as I walked the Torah path. I can also relate to the continuation of Rav Kook’s poetic words describing the healing ensuring from repentance: “And the radiance of the light of the sun of loving-kindness, of supernal kindness, sends its rays to us. We grow increasingly joyous. We are increasingly filled with an inner delight and satiety…” (ibid.)  Those early teshuva years sure were happy times, as I soaked up the holiness of the Old City of Jerusalem, together with my like-minded community. I soon got married and had a baby, which only added to our joy, which spilled over and brought healing to myself and all of creation. Yet, to achieve true joyous teshuva-healing (related to wholeness), we must tune into the dichotomy that includes our brokenness: “[The delight of teshuva goes] together with a broken heart…which we feel within ourselves. For this feeling itself, imbues us with an added inner spiritual delight and true wholeness. We feel that we are coming closer to the Source of all life, to the G-d Who is Alive, from Whom, just a short time before, we were so far” (Rav Kook, ibid.).
 
Our Teshuva is Entwined with Hashem’s Return
Parashat Nitzavim – always read just prior to Rosh Hashana – includes a detailed description of the teshuva process, which is connected to redemption. Rather than ‘penitence’ or ‘repentance,’ a more accurate translation of the word ‘teshuva’ is ‘return.’ Teshuva is a threefold return from being disconnected from our souls, our G-d and our land. Complete teshuva is a true homecoming in both its inner and outer dimensions. The first step is returning to our land, as
Our parasha teaches:
ספר דברים פרק ל פסוק א וְהָיָה כִי יָבֹאוּ עָלֶיךָ כָּל הַדְּבָרִים הָאֵלֶּה הַבְּרָכָה וְהַקְּלָלָה אֲשֶׁר נָתַתִּי לְפָנֶיךָ וַהֲשֵׁבֹתָ אֶל לְבָבֶךָ בְּכָל הַגּוֹיִם אֲשֶׁר הִדִּיחֲךָ הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ שָׁמָּה: (ב) וְשַׁבְתָּ עַד הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ וְשָׁמַעְתָּ בְקֹלוֹ כְּכֹל אֲשֶׁר אָנֹכִי מְצַוְּךָ הַיּוֹם אַתָּה וּבָנֶיךָ בְּכָל לְבָבְךָ וּבְכָל נַפְשֶׁךָ: (ג) וְשָׁב הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ אֶת שְׁבוּתְךָ וְרִחֲמֶךָ וְשָׁב וְקִבֶּצְךָ מִכָּל הָעַמִּים אֲשֶׁר הֱפִיצְךָ הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ שָׁמָּה: (ד) אִם יִהְיֶה נִדַּחֲךָ בִּקְצֵה הַשָּׁמָיִם מִשָּׁם יְקַבֶּצְךָ הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ וּמִשָּׁם יִקָּחֶךָ: (ה) וֶהֱבִיאֲךָ הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ אֶל הָאָרֶץ אֲשֶׁר יָרְשׁוּ אֲבֹתֶיךָ וִירִשְׁתָּהּ וְהֵיטִבְךָ וְהִרְבְּךָ מֵאֲבֹתֶיךָ:
It will be when all these things come upon you the blessing and the curse, which I have set before you, that you will contemplate in your heart, among all the nations where Hashem your G-d has banished you, and you will return to Hashem, your G-d, with all your heart and with all your soul, and you will listen to His voice according to all that I am commanding you this day you and your children. Then, Hashem, your G-d, will bring back your exiles, and He will have mercy upon you. He will once again gather you from all the nations, where Hashem, your G-d, had dispersed you. Even if your exiles are at the end of the heavens, Hashem, your G-d, will gather you from there, and He will take you from there. And Hashem, your G-d, will bring you to the land, which your forefathers possessed, and you [too] will take possession of it, and He will do good to you, and He will make you more numerous than your forefathers (Devarim 30-1-5).
 
Our section opens with the expression וְהָיָה/vehaya – “and it shall be” which is the expression of joy (Midrash Bereishit Rabbah 42:3). Contemplation about the happenings of our people during exile – both the blessings and the curses – leads to the realization that G-d is running the world.  When we return to Him, He, Himself returns to us. Rashi learns this concept from the subtle nuance of the Hebrew word for “return” in verse 3: ...וְשָׁב הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ אֶת שְׁבוּתְךָ “Hashem will return your captivity...”  The Heb. וְשָׁב/veshav, in the simple conjugation rather than the causative וְהֵשִׁיב/veheshiv – ‘will cause to return’ literally means: “Hashem, your G-d, will [Himself] return [with] your exiles. Our Rabbis learned from [the simple conjugation of the verb] here [which alludes to G-d Himself returning], that the Shechinah resides among Israel, as it were, in all the misery of our exile. When the Jews are redeemed, G-d writes redemption for Himself for He Himself returns along with Israel’s exiles (Babylonian Talmud, Megillah 29a).
 
The Process of Return – from External to Internal Teshuva
Teshuva is a never-ending process rather than a one-time mitzvah we perform once a year and finish with. It starts with our returning עַד/ad – ‘until.’ This indicates that the teshuva is until a certain extent towards Hashem (verse 2). The culmination of the teshuva process is our returning אֶל/el – ‘unto.’ We get so close that we actually embrace, as it were. This climax of the teshuva process is described in verse 10:
ספר דברים פרק ל פסוק י כִּי תִשְׁמַע בְּקוֹל הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ לִשְׁמֹר מִצְוֹתָיו וְחֻקֹּתָיו הַכְּתוּבָה בְּסֵפֶר הַתּוֹרָה הַזֶּה כִּי תָשׁוּב אֶל הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהֶיךָ בְּכָל לְבָבְךָ וּבְכָל נַפְשֶׁךָ:
“…when you obey Hashem, your G-d, to observe His commandments and His statutes written in this Torah scroll, [and] when you return to Hashem, your G-d, with all your heart and with all your soul” (Devarim 30:10).
 
The first part of teshuva is to refrain from transgression and trying to keep the mitzvot. The final and highest form of teshuva is the return to Hashem himself. To return unto G-d implies that our will becomes unified with His will. Then all the mitzvot will become our second nature, and we’ll never desire to transgress His will. This kind of teshuva can only be done with G-d’s help. Hashem has promised to give us that help, if only we begin to return to Him, then He will circumcise our heart (verse 6). This implies that Hashem will remove the blocks that block us from truly connecting with Him in the highest way. When our heart is circumcised, we become pure, and no longer struggle with the yetzer hara. Then, even the least preferred mitzvah will become a joyful occasion to connect with Hashem.
 
Ingathering the Scattered Chards of Our Soul and All Reality
The deepest secret of teshuva and its connection to healing is that the root of all diseases is being disconnected – disconnected from ourselves and from the divine root of our soul. The inner dimension of teshuva – returning to who we truly are – to our whole self – is intertwined with returning to Hashem – the root of our soul. As Rav Kook explains, teshuva emerges from the depths of being, from such great depths in which the individual stands not as a separate entity, but rather as a continuation of the vastness of universal existence. The desire for repentance is related to the Divine universal will, to its highest source. From the moment the mighty stream of teshuva affects the universal will, many forces within the whole of existence are stirred to disclose the good and to bestow good to all. This explains “Great is teshuva for it brings healing to the world…”  (The Lights of Penitence, Lights of Holiness, The Moral Principles, Essays, Letters, and Poems, p. 56 (translation of Orot Ha-Teshuva by Ben Zion Bokser). Thus the highest teshuva reclaims and returns all the scattered chards of our soul – a process that moves all reality to health and wholeness.