Wednesday, November 24, 2021

Prayer for Soothing Troubles and Enjoying a Tranquil Life


Parashat Vayeshev


Prayer for Soothing Troubles and Enjoying a Tranquil Life
 
Only You Hashem, know how many troubles I’ve been through,
the many sorrows, struggles, and trials that in my life accrue.
 
Please Hashem I pray that You help my distress to soothe.
I need a break, and only You can make my life smooth.
 
I am tired of confrontations, glitches, and strife.
I long to be just an ordinary surrendered wife.
 
Please Hashem grant me just a little respite.
What’s wrong with living simply and politely?
 
Will we ever completely comprehend,
for what purpose in this world, we were sent?
 
Yes, I am keenly aware that every single test,
is from You, Hashem, all designed for my best.
 
I don’t want to sound like an ungrateful complainer.
Perceiving the blessings in my life is a no-brainer.
 
I’m thankful for being healthy, and for my supportive spouse,
for food on the table, and for living securely in our house. 
 
Although I don’t believe that I deserve all of this,
I am still yearning for more serenity and bliss.
 
The best way to overcome depressing worry and fear,
is by experiencing Your presence so real and so near.
 
Therefore, open my eyes to see beyond the surface that confine.
So, my life can become filled with consciousness of the Divine.
 
Let me behold every greeting flower petal as Your extension!
Help me awaken my soul to connect with the inner dimension!
 
Knowing that nothing is perfect until Your house is built,
is it too much to ask for, getting my prayers fulfilled?
 
Tell me Hashem how can I start anew and do things right,
to enjoy a life of celebration, gladness, and light.  


Based on Bereishit Chapter 37: verse 1 and 2 with Rashi


ספר בראשית פרק לז פסוק א וַיֵּשֶׁב יַעֲקֹב בְּאֶרֶץ מְגוּרֵי אָבִיו בְּאֶרֶץ כְּנָעַן:
(ב) אֵלֶּה תֹּלְדוֹת יַעֲקֹב יוֹסֵף בֶּן שְׁבַע עֶשְׂרֵה שָׁנָה הָיָה רֹעֶה אֶת אֶחָיו בַּצֹּאן וְהוּא נַעַר אֶת בְּנֵי בִלְהָה וְאֶת בְּנֵי זִלְפָּה נְשֵׁי אָבִיו וַיָּבֵא יוֹסֵף אֶת דִּבָּתָם רָעָה אֶל אֲבִיהֶם:
“Ya’acov dwelt in the land of his father’s sojournings, in the land of Canaan. These are the generations of Ya’acov: when Yosef was seventeen years old, being a shepherd, he was with his brothers with the flocks, and he was a youth, [and was] with the sons of Bilhah and with the sons of Zilpah, his father’s wives; and Yosef brought evil tales about them to their father” (Bereishit 37:1-2).
 
רש"י על בראשית פרק לז פסוק ב
נדרש בו וישב ביקש יעקב לישב בשלוה קפץ עליו רוגזו של יוסף צדיקים מבקשים לישב בשלוה אומר הקב"ה לא דיין לצדיקים מה שמתוקן להם לעוה"ב אלא שמבקשים לישב בשלוה בעוה"ז:
…It is further expounded upon [as follows]: “dwelt” (verse 1) When Ya’acov sought to dwell in tranquility, the troubles of Yosef sprang upon him. The righteous seek to dwell in tranquility. Said the Holy One, blessed be He, “What is prepared for the righteous in the world to come is not sufficient for them, but they seek [also] to dwell in tranquility in this world!” (Rashi, Bereishit 37:2).

Monday, November 15, 2021

Prayer for Overcoming Inner Enemies, and Rising to Become My Very Best

 Parashat Vayislach


Prayer for Overcoming Inner Enemies, and Rising to Become my Very Best  
 
Hashem help me face my shadow side,
that dark part of me that I prefer to hide.
 
Those harmful feelings of worry and fear,
that makes me forget that You are always near.
 
Sometimes when things are hard You feel so far away.
Please help me have faith to keep facing another day!
 
I know its only my own lowliness that blocks my view.
Please cleanse the lens of my eye so my vision can renew!
 
Hashem help grant me focus and strength,    
to keep praying sincerely in great length.
 
Remove those awful, negative, spiderweb thoughts,
within whose net my mind so easily gets caught.
 
Help me get out of my heavy head and into my feet!
Allow me to keep dancing through life to Your holy beat!
 
Guide me to always yearn to do Your will,
while finding true happiness and feeling chill.
 
Lift me up from feeling lonely and blue.
Let me sense Your presence in everything I do!
 
You didn’t create me to care about myself alone.
Help me put the welfare of others before my own!
 
Guide me always do my very best,
to gracefully welcome every guest.
 
Teach me to become a giving wellspring of loving care,
supporting the needy and lifting people out of despair.  
 
Whatever I experience through life’s flows and ebbs,
let the awareness of Your Presence permeate my steps!
 
Strengthen me to keep going and never give up!
Show me how to always see the fullness of my cup!


Based on Bereishit Chapter 32 
ספר בראשית פרק לב פסוק ז
וַיָּשֻׁבוּ הַמַּלְאָכִים אֶל יַעֲקֹב לֵאמֹר בָּאנוּ אֶל אָחִיךָ אֶל עֵשָׂו וְגַם הֹלֵךְ לִקְרָאתְךָ וְאַרְבַּע מֵאוֹת אִישׁ עִמּוֹ:
(ח) וַיִּירָא יַעֲקֹב מְאֹד וַיֵּצֶר לוֹ וַיַּחַץ אֶת הָעָם אֲשֶׁר אִתּוֹ וְאֶת הַצֹּאן וְאֶת הַבָּקָר וְהַגְּמַלִּים לִשְׁנֵי מַחֲנוֹת:
The angels returned to Ya’acov, saying, ‘We came to your brother, to Esau, and he is also coming toward you, and four hundred men are with him.’ Ya’acov became very frightened and was distressed; so he divided the people who were with him and the flocks and the cattle and the camels into two camps” (Bereishit 32:7-8).8
ספר בראשית פרק לב פסוק י
וַיֹּאמֶר יַעֲקֹב אֱלֹהֵי אָבִי אַבְרָהָם וֵאלֹהֵי אָבִי יִצְחָק הָשֵׁם הָאֹמֵר אֵלַי שׁוּב לְאַרְצְךָ וּלְמוֹלַדְתְּךָ וְאֵיטִיבָה עִמָּךְ:
(יא) קָטֹנְתִּי מִכֹּל הַחֲסָדִים וּמִכָּל הָאֱמֶת אֲשֶׁר עָשִׂיתָ אֶת עַבְדֶּךָ כִּי בְמַקְלִי עָבַרְתִּי אֶת הַיַּרְדֵּן הַזֶּה וְעַתָּה הָיִיתִי לִשְׁנֵי מַחֲנוֹת: (יב) הַצִּילֵנִי נָא מִיַּד אָחִי מִיַּד עֵשָׂו כִּי יָרֵא אָנֹכִי אֹתוֹ פֶּן יָבוֹא וְהִכַּנִי אֵם עַל בָּנִים:
“Then Ya’acov said, ‘O G-d of my father Avraham and G-d of my father Yitzchak, Hashem, Who said to me, ‘Return to your land and to your birthplace, and I will do good to you.’ I have become small from all the kindnesses and from all the truth that You have rendered Your servant, for with my staff I crossed this Jordan, and now I have become two camps. Now deliver me from the hand of my brother, from the hand of Esau, for I am afraid of him, lest he comes and strikes me, [and strike] a mother with children” (Bereishit 32:10-12).
ספר בראשית פרק לב פסוק כה וַיִּוָּתֵר יַעֲקֹב לְבַדּוֹ וַיֵּאָבֵק אִישׁ עִמּוֹ עַד עֲלוֹת הַשָּׁחַר:
(כו) וַיַּרְא כִּי לֹא יָכֹל לוֹ וַיִּגַּע בְּכַף יְרֵכוֹ וַתֵּקַע כַּף יֶרֶךְ יַעֲקֹב בְּהֵאָבְקוֹ עִמּוֹ:
“Ya’acov was left alone, and a man wrestled with him until the break of dawn. When he saw that he could not prevail against him, he touched the socket of his hip, and the socket of Ya’acov's hip became dislocated as he wrestled with him” (Bereishit 32:25-26).6

Malbim, Bereishit 32:25: Ya’acov’s struggle is between good and evil in the world, between spirituality and materialism. Hashem created this world in opposites, but the human being consists of both body and soul, good and evil. Our purpose is to let our good overpower our evil – to let our body serve his soul. When Israel keeps Torah and Mitzvot, then Edom, our enemies will surrender. There are upper powers that conduct everything that exists in the world. Just as on the individual level of the human being, we have both an evil and a good inclination, that rule the intellect and soul, as well as the power of the animal soul and materialism, thus there is an upper power, called איש/Ish, which is the general holiness that guards Israel. There is also the general power, which is in charge of evil – is Sam…, Esau’s angel, who always aims at tempting and enticing. Its whole raison de vivre is to cause Israel to sin. Otherwise, this power has no existence at all. Before Ya’acov could confront Esau in person he had to confront the power of Esau, which is hence his own yetzer hara, hence the general yetzer hara of the world which is Esau’s angel. In his struggle against his own yetzer hara Ya’acov was able to strip himself of his body until his essence (soul) remained alone. The איש/ish which fought with him refers to Ya’acov’s own physicality, which would not let him strip himself of his body. Chazal teach that they brought up dust to the throne of glory this means that this was an inner struggle, which reached all the way to the root of emunah, for Esau’s angel wanted to separate Ya’acov from his root of emunah. However, the power of evil was unable to prevail over Ya’acov, for Ya’acov was able to overcome his physicality with the immense power of his soul.  

Wednesday, November 10, 2021

Prayer for Protection and a Successful Journey When Leaving the Land

Parashat Vayeitzei


Prayer for Protection and a Successful Journey When Leaving the Land 
 
Hashem, please shield me under Your protective hand. 
You know how much I fear leaving the holy land! 

But it is Your will that I honor my father and mother,
just as Ya’acov did when he ran away from his brother. 

Please send Your angels to watch over me through high and low!
Let me feel safe and sound, wherever in the world I need to go!

Protect me from exposure to the virus or any threatening germ!
May the Covid test result arrive in time for my flight to confirm! 

Keep the synthetic perfumes far away from me. 
Grant me the energy to keep going wherever I be!

Let me bring happiness to everyone I hold dear,
reconnecting with them all, whether far or near!

Allow me to sleep soundly and receive a holy dream!
Guide me on my journey to stay balanced and not extreme!

On all my arduous stops grant me all my basic needs,
including kosher green smoothies with edible weeds! 

Just as the twinkled stars shimmer in Your sky,
Let me sparkle Your holy light from on high!  

Wherever You guide my steps, may I reflect Your light!
Let me inspire everyone with Your words so bright!  

May my modest, colorful scarves motivate women on my way!
May they open themselves to receive the messages I relay!  

Infuse me with holiness and let my spiritual needs be met! 
Keep me focused on never the Land of Israel to forget!

Let me accomplish my tasks overseas and reach my goal,
for the holy land will always be the home of my soul. 

It is not easy passing the tests wherever I roam.
Please send Your angels to bring me safely back home!



Based on Bereishit Chapter 28: 

ספר בראשית פרק כח פסוק ז וַיִּשְׁמַע יַעֲקֹב אֶל אָבִיו וְאֶל אִמּוֹ וַיֵּלֶךְ פַּדֶּנָה אֲרָם:

“Then Ya’acov listened to his father and his mother, and he went to Padan aram” (Bereishit 28:7).

ספר בראשית פרק כח פסוק י וַיֵּצֵא יַעֲקֹב מִבְּאֵר שָׁבַע וַיֵּלֶךְ חָרָנָה:

“Ya’acov left Beer sheba, and he went to Haran” (Bereishit 28:10).
ספר בראשית פרק כח פסוק יב 
וַיַּחֲלֹם וְהִנֵּה סֻלָּם מֻצָּב אַרְצָה וְרֹאשׁוֹ מַגִּיעַ הַשָּׁמָיְמָה וְהִנֵּה מַלְאֲכֵי אֱלֹהִים עֹלִים וְיֹרְדִים בּוֹ:
“Then he dreamed and behold! a ladder set up on the ground and its top reached to heaven; and behold, angels of G-d were ascending and descending upon it” (Bereishit 28:12).

ספר בראשית פרק כח פסוק טו וְהִנֵּה אָנֹכִי עִמָּךְ וּשְׁמַרְתִּיךָ בְּכֹל אֲשֶׁר תֵּלֵךְ וַהֲשִׁבֹתִיךָ אֶל הָאֲדָמָה הַזֹּאת כִּי לֹא אֶעֱזָבְךָ עַד אֲשֶׁר אִם עָשִׂיתִי אֵת אֲשֶׁר דִּבַּרְתִּי לָךְ: 

“Behold, I am with you, and I will guard you wherever you go, and I will restore you to this land, for I will not forsake you until I have done what I have spoken concerning you” (Bereishit 28:15).

ספר בראשית פרק כח פסוק כ 
וַיִּדַּר יַעֲקֹב נֶדֶר לֵאמֹר אִם יִהְיֶה אֱלֹהִים עִמָּדִי וּשְׁמָרַנִי בַּדֶּרֶךְ הַזֶּה אֲשֶׁר אָנֹכִי הוֹלֵךְ וְנָתַן לִי לֶחֶם לֶאֱכֹל וּבֶגֶד לִלְבֹּשׁ: כא) וְשַׁבְתִּי בְשָׁלוֹם אֶל בֵּית אָבִי וְהָיָה הָשֵׁם לִי לֵאלֹהִים:
כב) וְהָאֶבֶן הַזֹּאת אֲשֶׁר שַׂמְתִּי מַצֵּבָה יִהְיֶה בֵּית אֱלֹהִים וְכֹל אֲשֶׁר תִּתֶּן לִי עַשֵּׂר אֲעַשְּׂרֶנּוּ לָךְ:
“Ya’acov uttered a vow, saying, ‘If G-d will be with me, and He will guard me on this way, upon which I am going, and He will give me bread to eat and a garment to wear; 21 And if I return in peace to my father's house, and Hashem will be my G-d; 
22 Then this stone, which I have placed as a monument, shall be a house of G-d, and everything that You give me, I will surely tithe to You” (Bereishit 28:20-22).


Wednesday, November 3, 2021

Prayer for Restoring Loving Relationships with Siblings

 

Parashat Toldot
Prayer for Restoring Loving Relationships with Siblings


 That the two of us were siblings no one believed,
although in the same womb we were conceived.
 
She was so dark-skinned and hairy,
I was white and smooth like a fairy.
 
She was thin and fragile, while I was strong.
Despite our differences, we grew to get along.
 
For so many years my sister was my very best friend,
but then our mutual loving trust came to a sharp end.
 
Hashem, I wish our deepest closeness would remain.
How do I repair, recover and heal this deepest pain?
 
I ask You Hashem for compassion to heal my open bruise.
Your Loving Feminine Presence I cannot afford to lose.
 
In peace with all my family, I desire to live. 
  Help me focus on the good and learn to forgive.
 
Even if she doesn’t want to understand or really hear,
I am going to accept her constraints, for she is so dear.
 
Even if she isn’t sorry for her lack of communication,
I will do everything in my power to bring reconciliation.
 
For those with whom we share an eternal bond of blood,
we must be willing to pick up sparks buried in the mud.
 
Many families have been torn apart by trivial matters.
How can people allow their hearts to remain in shatters?
 
Blaming others never helps us become our very bests.
Hashem, help me grow, refine, and learn from all my tests!
 
I need to reclaim my broken shards and heal from within.
Hashem give me the strength to accept and repair any sin.
 
Show me the way within the pathways of my heart,
to find common ground, to no longer be torn apart.



Based on Bereishit Chapter 25 and 27:
ספר בראשית פרק כה פסוק כה וַיֵּצֵא הָרִאשׁוֹן אַדְמוֹנִי כֻּלּוֹ כְּאַדֶּרֶת שֵׂעָר וַיִּקְרְאוּ שְׁמוֹ עֵשָׂו:
(כו) וְאַחֲרֵי כֵן יָצָא אָחִיו וְיָדוֹ אֹחֶזֶת בַּעֲקֵב עֵשָׂו וַיִּקְרָא שְׁמוֹ יַעֲקֹב:
“The first one emerged ruddy; he was completely like a coat of hair, and they named him Esau. Afterwards, his brother emerged, and his hand was grasping Esau’s heel, and he named him Ya’acov (Bereishit 25:25-26).  

ספר בראשית פרק כה פסוק כז וַיִּגְדְּלוּ הַנְּעָרִים וַיְהִי עֵשָׂו אִישׁ יֹדֵעַ צַיִד אִישׁ שָׂדֶה וְיַעֲקֹב אִישׁ תָּם ישֵׁב אֹהָלִים:

“Then the youths grew up, and Esau was a man who understood hunting, a man of the field, whereas Ya’acov was a pure man, dwelling in tents” (Bereishit 25:27). 

ספר בראשית פרק כז פסוק לד כִּשְׁמֹעַ עֵשָׂו אֶת דִּבְרֵי אָבִיו וַיִּצְעַק צְעָקָה גְּדֹלָה וּמָרָה עַד מְאֹד וַיֹּאמֶר לְאָבִיו בָּרֲכֵנִי גַם אָנִי אָבִי: (לה) וַיֹּאמֶר בָּא אָחִיךָ בְּמִרְמָה וַיִּקַּח בִּרְכָתֶךָ:

“When Esau heard his father’s words, he cried out a great and bitter cry, and he said to his father, ‘Bless me too, O my father!’ But he said, ‘Your brother came with cunning and took your blessing’ (Bereishit 27:34-35). 
ספר בראשית פרק כז פסוק לח
וַיֹּאמֶר עֵשָׂו אֶל אָבִיו הַבֲרָכָה אַחַת הִוא לְךָ אָבִי בָּרֲכֵנִי גַם אָנִי אָבִי וַיִּשָּׂא עֵשָׂו קֹלוֹ וַיֵּבְךְּ:
“Then Esau said to his father, ‘Have you [but] one blessing, my father? Bless me too, my father.’ So, Esau raised his voice and wept (Bereishit 27:34-35).