
Torah wisdom from Rebbetzin Chana Bracha Siegelbaum
Author, EmunaHealer, Founder and Director of Midreshet B'erot Bat Ayin
Thursday, July 10, 2025
Parashat Balak: What Does Bilam Teach Us About the Eternal Sanctity of the Communities of Israel?

Wednesday, July 17, 2024
Parashat Balak: Are Entitlement Expectations in Relationships a Trait Inherited from Bilam?
Parashat Balak
How Does Letting Go of Expectations Help Keep Us Content?
Our unrealistic expectations cause frustration and disappointment. We
make our lives miserable with any expectations we have of people, situations,
and what we feel entitled to receive. With this kind of attitude, we can G-d
forbid easily become addicted to material goods and expressions of appreciation.
If I expect a sweet thank you phone call in return for spending time selecting
a special birthday gift for my granddaughter, I could get upset if she only
writes me a short thank you message. So, I have learned, that to keep myself
happy I must stop expecting anything. If I didn’t expect any expression of gratitude,
I would be so grateful for a short thank you message even without any emoji. Over
the years in my interactions with my students, I have noticed the difference
between those who make demands and those who make humble requests, whether for getting
their doorknob fixed, receiving more respect from fellow students, changing their
tutor or study partner, or for a change in B’erot lunch menu. Beneath the
demands are the disappointed expectations of a self-important person who feels entitled
to be treated like a princess. Yet the exact same wants can be expressed completely
differently when they derive from the humility of accepting that it may not
work out to fill all their needs at a given time. “You catch more flies with
honey than with vinegar” isn’t limited to its superficial meaning that you can
win people to your side more easily by gentle persuasion than by hostile
confrontation. In my experience, I’m naturally much more prone to extend myself
to do everything in my power to fulfill a humble request rather than an
entitled demand. Whereas I’m repelled when people relate to me as a servant
created to fulfill their needs, I will even anticipate, serve, and accommodate
the unexpressed needs of others. Being the director of a midrasha with students
from the four corners of the world, I have learned to appreciate the
differences between some of those who emerge from the Western culture influenced
by the greedy Esav always wanting more, and students from the East especially
from India, who come from a very humble and respectful culture. Yet we Jews
returning to Israel – to our ancestors’ spiritual heritage – are learning to
return to the character traits of a good eye, humility, and modest desires that
Avraham our Father possessed.
What is the Difference between Spirituality and Holiness?
I often speak about the difference between spirituality and
holiness. Whereas a person can be very spiritual but rotten to the core,
holiness is G-dliness, and can only emerge from the light of a person with a refined
character. Although Bilam was known
as a uniquely spiritual person highly attuned to G-d’s will, his spirituality was
drawn from the depths of tumah (impurity). In contrast, the spiritual
greatness of Moshe and Avraham was enveloped in the highest realms of kedusha
– sanctity. Holiness is ohr – the pure refraction of Hashem’s light that
requires a suitable vessel – a receptacle of sterling character traits that match
the light it needs to contain. Spirituality is at great risk of falling to a
place of tumah and darkness without such a vessel to hold the light. Bilam is the perfect example of a spiritual person lacking holiness. Whereas
Avraham was generous, humble, and modest, Bilam was self-centered, arrogant,
and driven by money and all it could buy.
How Do the Rabbis Learn of Bilam’s Trifold Negative Character Traits?
Firstly, Bilam’s mission – for which he was hired – was to curse the Jewish
people, by casting an evil eye upon them. He was suitable for this job since he
was an expert at bringing attention to the negative points of others. Being a
master of the evil eye, his magic was to highlight the dark points of others,
thus claiming that they didn’t deserve their blessings. Bilam also displayed
his money greed – to which he felt entitled – by demanding a greater salary for
his shady job:
ספר במדבר פרק
כב פסוק יח וַיַּעַן
בִּלְעָם וַיֹּאמֶר אֶל עַבְדֵי בָלָק אִם יִתֶּן לִי בָלָק מְלֹא בֵיתוֹ כֶּסֶף
וְזָהָב לֹא אוּכַל לַעֲבֹר אֶת פִּי הָשֵׁם אֱלֹהָי לַעֲשׂוֹת קְטַנָּה אוֹ
גְדוֹלָה:
Rashi explains that by mentioning A HOUSE FULL
OF SILVER AND GOLD - Bilam exposed how he was greedy and coveted other people’s
money. He said, “He ought to give me all his silver and gold, since he has to
hire many armies, and even then, it is questionable whether he will be
victorious or not, whereas I will certainly succeed.” [Midrash Tanchuma
Balak; Midrash Bamidbar Rabbah 20:10]; (Rashi, Bamidbar
22:18). Moreover, Bilam wasn’t embarrassed to display his arrogance
and honor-seeking when he twisted the reason why Hashem told him not to go with
Balak’s entourage to curse Israel:
Although Hashem very clearly tells him not to go with the Moabite officers to curse the Jews because the Jewish nation is blessed, Bilam reports this to the Moabite officers: “Hashem has refused to let me go with you.” Inferring that he will only be permitted to go with greater nobles. This shows us that he was conceited and unwilling to reveal that he was under the control of the Omnipresent except in an arrogant manner. Therefore, Balak had to sent… again…” (verse 15) - [Mid. Tanchuma Balak 6, Midrash Bamidbar Rabbah 20:10], (Rashi, Bamidbar 22:13). Entitlement is always toxic. It comes with arrogance, pride, and selfishness. Entitlement is operating under the delusion that you deserve something you have not yet earned.
All the Lonely People Where Do They All Come From?
I sometimes come across people who twist what others tell them in a way
that sadly hurts themselves. My heart goes out to “all
the lonely people…” although I may have a cue to answer, “…Where do they all
come from?” They come from a place of misery that makes them feel entitled
to their neediness. In their demand to belong, they feel abandoned, excluded,
and ousted. I know such a lonely woman with a heart of gold, whose intense desire
to belong causes her the most painful rejections. Since she is going through
such horrific hardships without adequate support, when someone reaches out to
her and offers her a little loving companionship, she will hang on to it for
dear life. This attitude of entitlement to belong sets a vicious circle in
motion where the one who initially reached out must set proper boundaries so
that the relationship will not become imbalanced by the intensity of her need to
belong, which greatly exceeds the ability of others to include her. The feeling
of entitlement causes the lonely person to view the one who sets boundaries as
mean, insensitive, and hurtful. Yes, I have been blamed for such traits, and
even worse, when I invited a certain lonely woman to join my midrasha for a Shabbatton.
When she insisted on coming again the following Shabbat and possibly every
Shabbat, to hang out with the students, I had to set clear boundaries to ensure
she wouldn’t overstay her welcome. I offered her to stay once a month in the
company of the B’erot community where she feels she belongs. Had she only accepted
my very best offer to be a monthly, beloved guest, she could have gained the
companionship she so much craves. But no, due to her complicated family
situation and her need for others to take on that role, she insisted that by
limiting the times when she could join my midrasha, I was betraying her, sinning
against her, hurting and breaking her. Sadly, she now shoots herself in the
foot, refusing to wear any label and outfit upon which is written ‘monthly guest!’”
which according to her “I think she should wear!” So my heart is crying for
that lonely soul who can be so kind and loving at times, but who causes herself
to remain in her loneliness through her grand expectations of others, which prevents
her from receiving the finger as long as she cannot get the whole hand. I will
continue to pray for this lonely unsupported woman who is going through so much
hardship, what else can I do?
Gratitude Focus
for the Week of Parashat Balak –
Some Tips for Letting
Go of Expectations
Prioritize Appreciation Over Expectations – Learn to trade expectations for appreciation, and your entire relationship – and life – will change. Instead of focusing on the negative, make a point to value what others can offer you. This will take you much further in your relationship. If you pay attention, there’s always something to appreciate. Appreciate your invitations to monthly dinner parties even if you would have preferred to be invited to weekly feasts. Appreciation can help put an end to your unhealthy expectations in a relationship.
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Demonstrate Consideration – Healthy relationships hinge on consideration for others, their interests, and their relationship expectations. To show consideration, you must make a point to value your relationship over your relationship expectations. This is a real challenge since it’s easy to view your expectations or ‘rules’ as the basis of your relationship. When you value your partner over your rules, this paves the way for fulfilling both people’s expectations.
· Be Grateful for the Good Points – Gratitude is our major defense against the wrath of entitlement that screams at others, and all they do, “It is simply NOT ENOUGH!” Yet, gratitude will help fill you with hope and belief in your friend, sister, daughter, or spouse.
· Avoid Repetition – If you are in an argumentative pattern in your relationship, change your approach. If you don’t, you risk creating a circular loop where neither party is heard, leaving both feeling defeated. Take the high road and bow out of an argument. Take a break to regroup and consider what you’re really arguing about. When you make this a habit, you set a high standard for what to expect in a relationship.
· Never Question the Nature of Your Relationship – When it comes to learning how to manage expectations in a relationship, one of the worst missteps you can make is questioning the intent of others. When you question the very nature of your relationship, it breaks down trust, which takes a toll on even the strongest connection. Just because you’re having issues doesn’t mean the relationship itself is a problem.
· Never Threaten Your Relationship – One of the primary expectations in a relationship is that there will be give and take and mutual dialogue. Threatening your relationship with ultimatums doesn’t accomplish anything, since it shuts down communication. If you’re at the point of threatening the other person, it’s time to take a break and rethink the conversation.
Wednesday, June 28, 2023
How Can we Overcome Susceptibility to Evil Eye, Witchcraft and Curses?

Parashat Balak
How Can we Overcome Susceptibility to Evil Eye, Witchcraft and
Curses?
Developing Internal Rectified Vision During the Month of Tamuz
As we enter deeper into the midpoint of the month of Tamuz the
power of the sense of the month, ‘vision’ intensifies. During the entire month
of Tamuz the spies spied the land of Israel through external rather than
internal vision and thus blemished the sense of seeing. Therefore, we have the
opportunity to rectify the blemished ‘seeing’ of the spies specifically during the
month of Tamuz. It is the time to ‘guard’ our eyes to see only what is good in
the world and in others. The ability to guard and focus our eyesight correctly
is the rectified ‘sense’ of sight. Superficial reality does not necessarily
reflect inner truth. The challenge is to go beyond what appears to the eye
externally and see the inner divine reality. That was what the spies lacked
when they only looked at the outer might of the Canaanites and their own
military weakness, forgetting that Hashem runs every show. Our yetzer hara (negative
impulse) tempts us to follow our external vision, whether to judge others
unfavorably or to be unsatisfied with our portion in life, rather than looking
at the cup as being half full. We must emulate the ways of Hashem who looks at
the good that we do, even if not all our actions are good. We learn this from
the Torah verse in Parashat Balak, “He has seen no iniquity in Ya’acov”
(Bamidbar 23:21). We need to give the benefit of the doubt even to a
completely wicked person because it is impossible that no good point can be
found in him. We must also find good points in ourselves. Even when we feel
really bad about ourselves, we must look at ourselves in a kinder light and
search for some good points from within all the negative, in order to revive
ourselves (Rebbe Natan of Breslev, Likutei Halachot, Hilchot Techumin
v’Aruvei Techumin 6:11).
Seeing the Whole Beyond the Broken
Surface
The human eye is an energy center
that can send out either negative or positive energy. The Jewish people are
created in the “image and likeness” of Hashem (Bereishit 1:26). The צֶלֶם/tzelem – ‘image’
is masculine influencing, whereas the דְּמוּת/demut –
‘likeness’ is feminine receiving. Seeing a person can affect reality, as known regarding
ayin hara, and ayin tovah, the latter always having the greater influence (Rav
Tzaddok of Lublin, Takanat Hashavin 6). How do we look at the people we
love? Our children, family, and our close friends? Do we notice the runny nose,
the pimples, and the wrinkles? Or do we focus on the sparkle in their eyes, in
their innate holiness, and their will to grow? We need to always look at the
soul within a person, to empathize and see the bigger picture of each
situation. To judge others favorably and to learn to constantly stand in
another’s shoes. To hear what someone is really telling us between the lines,
what their heart is crying out to us. We need to see on one hand the potential
for true wholeness and rectification in every broken person and situation.
Although beneath the superficial veneer of reality, there is a broken world all
around us, our Sages taught: “There is no vessel as whole as a broken heart.”
We need to be just broken enough to feel and relate to the pain in others, but
not too broken to act positively and forcefully to heal, mend and fix wherever
we can. It is the essence of walking the tightrope of life or as Rebbe Nachman
said: “The whole world is a very narrow bridge – but the essential thing is not
to be afraid.”
G-d Opened Bilam’s Evil Eye and Transformed
it for Blessing
משנה מסכת אבות פרק ה משנה יט כָּל מִי שֶׁיֵּשׁ בְּיָדוֹ שְׁלשָׁה דְבָרִים
הַלָּלוּ, מִתַּלְמִידָיו שֶׁל אַבְרָהָם אָבִינוּ. וּשְׁלשָׁה דְבָרִים אֲחֵרִים,
מִתַּלְמִידָיו שֶׁל בִּלְעָם הָרָשָׁע. עַיִן טוֹבָה, וְרוּחַ נְמוּכָה, וְנֶפֶשׁ
שְׁפָלָה, מִתַּלְמִידָיו שֶׁל אַבְרָהָם אָבִינוּ. עַיִן רָעָה, וְרוּחַ
גְּבוֹהָה, וְנֶפֶשׁ רְחָבָה, מִתַּלְמִידָיו שֶׁל בִּלְעָם הָרָשָׁע:
Whoever possesses the following
three traits is of the disciples of our father Avraham, and whoever possesses
the opposite three traits is of the disciples of the wicked Bilam. The
disciples of our Father Avraham have a good eye, a meek spirit, and a humble
soul. The disciples of the wicked Bilam have an evil eye, a haughty spirit, and
a gross soul (Pirkei Avot 5:11).
A GOOD
EYE – That is the first aspect with which to worship Hashem. This is through
the character trait of rachamim (compassion) and by overcoming the evil
eye manifested by the anger of Bilam (Kedushat HaLevi).
Bilam is described twice as ha’gever she’tum ha’ayin, which some translations render, “the man whose eye is opened” (Bamidbar 24:3,15). However, the same Hebrew root can be understood as meaning closed, not opened. Some sages therefore explained that Bilam was blind in one eye [since it is written in the singular eye not eyes]. Others said his prophetic capacity was defective until the moment when he “saw that it was right in the eyes of Hashem to bless Israel” (Bamidbar 23:1) and when he “lifted up his eyes and saw Israel dwelling according to its tribes, the spirit of G-d came upon him” (Bamidbar 23:2). Hashem opened the eye of even the evil Bilam to see beyond the external human vision to the inner divine truth (based on Rabbi Raymond Apple). If this is true regarding the evil Bilam, who was a professional black magician, hired to look for the negative points of Israel in order to place a curse upon them, how much more so must we believe that with a bit of work, regular people can become trained to overcome our blocked vision and learn to open our eyes for blessing.
Two Kinds of Seeing, with the Right
or the Left Eye
Hashem created everything with
wisdom. Therefore, he created two eyes to allude to the fact that there are two
kinds of seeing, to the right or the left – the world-to-come or this world.
Likewise, the heart has two chambers, “The heart of the wise to his right…” The
vision of the eye depends on the heart, it is all one matter. Every average
person looks with both of his eyes, but Moshe Rabbeinu had only one good eye as
it states about him at his birth, “…that he was good” (Shemot 2:2). When
his life came to an end, it states that “his eye had not dimmed (Devarim
34:7). “His eye” is written in singular language, for Moshe only had one
special vision in his right eye. The Zohar explains that we cover the
eyes of the dead, because, at the time of death, the dying sees the face of the
Shechina. Therefore, he should no longer see in this world. Yet, Moshe Rabbeinu
saw the Shechina with a clear vision even in this world. He only looked with
inner vision; therefore, his eye did not dim. This is, “May you see your world
in your lifetime!” (Babylonian Talmud, Berachot 17b). May you see with
your right illuminated eye even in this world! (Based on Shem M’Shemuel).
In contrast, about Bilam it is written שְׁתֻם הָעָיִן/she’tum ha’ayin
– ‘a gouged-out eye’ (Bamidbar 24:3, 24:15) as he was blind in his right
eye. Although he was a prophet, he could only see through his left eye – the
eye related to the physical reality. This is why he was so preoccupied with the
amount of money Balak would pay him for cursing Israel. “He was greedy and
coveted other people’s money. He said, ‘Balak ought to give me all his silver
and gold since he has to hire many armies, and even then, it is questionable
whether he will be victorious or not, whereas I will certainly succeed’” [Mid.
Tanchuma Balak; Bamidbar Rabbah 20:10]; (Rashi, Bamidbar
22:18).
To Believe or not to Believe in the
Evil Eye
“Bilam raised his eyes and saw
Israel dwelling according to its tribes, and the spirit of G-d rested upon him”
(Bamidbar 24:2). Bilam sought to cast an evil eye upon them (Rashi
ibid.). Ayin hara is energy that includes negative thoughts, jealousy, hatred,
bad wishes, or curses sent from one person to another. Negative energy has a
very low vibration, behind which is a desire to hurt someone else. Ayin hara or
negative energy can damage spiritually, energetically, and physically. Some
people do not believe in ayin hara, they claim: “I’m the master of my own
destiny. Therefore, the thoughts of someone else cannot hurt me, except if I
allow it to happen.” This claim has points of truth, but it is not the complete
truth. Although we and our thoughts influence our lives, each person has a
different level of spiritual protection. We do have free will, but so does the
person who sends negative energy. Therefore, we may be susceptible to other
people’s energy. On a spiritual energetic level, a thought becomes a vibration,
which is transmitted from one person to the next. In case a person is
susceptible, the vibration may penetrate his aura and damage his physical and
emotional body. Although a thought creates reality, still we see people who
more easily and quickly create their own reality, while others are more
influenced by other people’s energy. Yet, there is truth to the statement,
“ayin hara won’t harm you if you don’t believe in it,” because too much
thought, preoccupation, and fear of ayin hara doesn’t place us in a positive
place or in a high vibration. “We learn from Parashat Balak that
negative energy has absolutely no power against the will of Hashem. Although
Bilam wanted to do anything in his power to curse Israel, he was unable because
Hashem did not let him, as it states, “How can I curse those whom G-d has not
cursed, and how can I invoke wrath if Hashem has not been angered?” (Bamidbar
23:8). Since we are Hashem’s chosen people, we are protected against negative
energy, sorcery, and witchcraft of any other nation. Bilam and Balak teach us
to trust in Hashem and strengthen our connection with Him. When we rectify our
own eyesight and learn to see the inner divine reality, we will rise above the
evil eye. With Hashem on our side, any negative energy turns into blessing.
Hashem will protect us from the evil eye, just as He transformed Bilam’s curse
into a most exalting benediction!
It is possible to do step 7. by itself when you need protection as well as part of the bedtime Shema.