How Does Unified Leadership Help Us Overcome the Test of Fear?
Women on the Land
Torah wisdom from Rebbetzin Chana Bracha Siegelbaum
Author, EmunaHealer, Founder and Director of Midreshet B'erot Bat Ayin
Wednesday, June 25, 2025
Parashat Korach: What is the Connection Between Korach’s Revolt and Eretz Yisrael?
How Does Unified Leadership Help Us Overcome the Test of Fear?
Friday, June 20, 2025
Parashat Shelach-Lecha: Is It Possible to Merit the Land of Israel Without Trusting Hashem?
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Parashat
Shelach Lecha
Is It
Possible to Merit the Land of Israel Without Trusting Hashem?
Monday, June 9, 2025
Parashat Beha’alotcha: Carrying the Light - How is Torah as the Prerequisite for Dwelling in the Land?

Parashat
Beha’alotcha
Carrying the Light - How is Torah the Prerequisite for
Dwelling in the Land?

Wednesday, June 4, 2025
Parashat Naso: What is the Connection Between External Order and Fulfilling our Inner Mission?


The Sefat Emet explains that just as each angel has a unique root and mission, so too each member of Am Yisrael longed to know their soul’s root and place of rectification. Though we cannot see this with our physical eyes, through the Torah, each person can find their spiritual origin. Some rare individuals may ascend entirely through their deeds, but even those who are not on that level can leap beyond their natural rung through longing and will alone. “Each man by his camp and under his banner” represents this dual path of fixed service and spiritual aspiration. In this way, every individual’s unique role in the camp mirrors their deeper mission in the Divine structure of the nation, especially as it manifests in the holiness of Eretz Yisrael (Sefat Emet, Bamidbar, year 5639).
Carrying Our Sacred Responsibility in the Land
The Levites
carried the Mishkan in the desert. Today, we carry the sanctity of the Land in
our own way. Living in Eretz Yisrael is not always easy – there are
physical challenges, bureaucratic obstacles, and moments of loneliness. But
just as each Levi had to bear his assigned portion – whether it was the heavy
planks, the shimmering curtains, or the sacred vessels – each of us carries our
piece of the collective inheritance.
Living
in Bat Ayin, we can perceive how every soul brings a different panel, a
different curtain, a different vessel to the collective sanctuary of our
people. Each student who comes to learn Torah, plant a garden, raise children,
or simply breathe in the holiness of the Land is carrying their part of the
Mishkan – their avodat hakodesh. Each of us, with our unique
contribution and role in the community, reflects our deeper spiritual mission,
aligned with our soul’s root and place of rectification within the Divine
structure of the nation.
Wednesday, May 28, 2025
Parashat Bamidbar: How Does the Wilderness Prepare Us to Inherit the Land of Israel?
Parashat
Bamidbar
How Does
the Wilderness Prepare Us to Inherit the Land of Israel?
What
made Me Embrace the Torah in The Old City of Jerusalem on Shavuot?
This
Shavuot, I celebrate 45 years of Torah! I can hardly believe how the years have
flowed by, like foamy waves softening and refining our hearts, as hardships
etched their traces into the furrows of our faces. I look back with nostalgia
to that first Shavuot – the beginning of my teshuva – when everything was new.
I found myself among a circle of women, sitting on cool stones under the starry
sky in the Old City of Jerusalem. It was the first time I learned about Ruth –
who left behind the comfort of her regal home, her country, and all that was
familiar, to follow her aged mother-in-law Naomi toward an unknown destiny.
I, too,
had recently left my own country, my childhood home, and the prospect of a
prestigious university degree to follow my heart and fulfill an undefined
calling. Was Ruth also a truth seeker, who found the pomp of prosperity
superficial while looking for a deeper meaning and mission in life? I pondered.
Since my
teenage years, I had been searching for truth. I had rejected the Marxism I was
taught in high school, which focused solely on dismantling economic classes without
addressing the values that would define the envisioned society of financial
equality. Dancing in the inner city with born-again Xtians whose theology
conflicted with everything I would later come to value felt exciting at the
time, but their answers rang hollow and rehearsed. Though I was a flower-power
girl immersed in the hippy counterculture, I was never drawn enough to the East
to join my friends traveling to India and Nepal in search of spirituality and
inner vision. Yoga helped me strengthen my body, but it in no way touched my
soul.
I had
never considered seeking truth within my own Jewish heritage. The Jewish
experiences of my youth had led me to believe Judaism was nothing more than a
culinary creed wrapped in outdated rules, lacking any spiritual essence.
Yet here
I was, in the holy city of Jerusalem, at the Women’s Division of the Diaspora
Yeshiva – where I had surprisingly found my spiritual home. I still remember
hearing Rabbi Goldstein proclaim: “Now that you’ve received the Torah, can you
give it back? No, you can’t. You have to keep it!” At that moment, I knew I was
hooked for life.
What
Does it Take to Make our Torah Transformative and Enduring?
The Imrei
Emet explains that the Torah was given to rectify the three core flaws of
humanity – jealousy, lust, and pride – reflected in the sins of early
generations: Kayin, the generation of the Flood, and the Tower of Babel. The
mitzvot at Matan Torah correspond to these: the boundary around Mount Sinai
addressed jealousy – giving each person their designated space; the command to
abstain from marital intimacy represented restraint – countering lust; and
standing humbly at the foot of the mountain symbolized submission – opposing
pride. This is why the Torah was given with fire, water, and wilderness –
representing passion, humility, and self-nullification. Every day, we are
challenged by jealousy, lust, and pride – and only through the power of Torah
can we overcome them. Moreover, to truly acquire Torah, we must make ourselves
like a wilderness – open, humble, and ownerless (Imrei Emet, Bamidbar, 5667).
This concept hits home when I reminisce about those early days of embracing
Torah, most of the students in Diaspora Yeshiva from affluent American families,
made great sacrifices to leave flourishing careers and promising prosperous
futures behind, to dedicate ourselves to Torah learning in the Land of Israel. As
the Imrei Emet teaches, as long as we make ourselves like a desert completely
given over and devoted to Torah and Mitzvot (mesirut nefesh), through
this inner work of surrendering our selves, our Torah becomes transformative
and enduring. Now, 45 years later this concept has proven true through the
descendants of the students of the ‘hippy yeshiva’ raising families deeply
rooted in Torah and mitzvot.
Thus, the desert became a place of alignment – each soul drawn to its specific inheritance, in sync with its Divine source. This is hinted in the verse: וְאִישׁ עַל־דִּגְלוֹ בְאֹתֹת לְבֵית אֲבֹתָם יַחֲנוּ “Each man by his banner, according to the signs of their father’s house shall they camp” (Bamidbar 2:2). The אֹתֹת/otot – “signs” – may be understood as spiritual markers, revealing each tribe’s unique role within the collective mission of Am Yisrael in Eretz Yisrael.
May we each walk our personal midbar with courage and faith – shedding old identities, listening to the voice of Hashem, and preparing our hearts to receive our portion in the Holy Land. And may we soon see the full inheritance of Am Yisrael revealed – each tribe, each soul, restored to its rightful place in the Land.
Tuesday, May 20, 2025
Parashat Behar/Bechukotai: How does Keeping the Sabbatical and Jubilee Years Bring About Redemption?

Parashat
Behar/Bechukotai
How does
keeping the Sabbatical and Jubilee Years Bring About Redemption?
This idea is mirrored in many physical disciplines, where the rest between exertions is what brings about the deepest restoration. One of our meditative movement teachers used to say, “Let the pause do its good work.” In moments of stillness, we shift shape – we let go of who we were to become something new. In the process of meditative movement, the pause is essential to transformation – the shedding of the old habit of being. Likewise, after six years of working the land and drawing the spiritual dimension from within the Holy Land and its fruit, Shemitta invites us to stop. Only by letting go – by pausing completely – can we truly internalize the light of the Land.
In today’s fast-paced world, where we are constantly rushing and overextended, the mitzvah of Shemitta offers a powerful spiritual remedy. Taking a break isn’t easy; we fear losing ground. But relentless movement without renewal can lead to burnout. Shemitta teaches us how to pause before we collapse – how to breathe and become whole again. This seventh-year rest is not only agricultural – it is a Divine prescription for spiritual and emotional healing.
(Inspired by Rabbi Meir Elkabas, The Restraint of Shemittah)
The Return to Our Source During the
Jubilee Year
Parashat Behar
introduces the mitzvah of the Jubilee year – a spiritual milestone that
challenges us even more than the Sabbatical year. After observing seven full
Shemitta cycles, the Torah calls upon us to sanctify an additional year – the
fiftieth – and to refrain from working the land for a second consecutive year:
Monday, May 12, 2025
Parashat Emor: Why is the Spiritual experience of the Holidays only complete in Eretz Yisrael?
