Lech Lecha Without Goodbye
Abba,
to an unknown world you took a stroll,
you
went to yourself – to the essence of your soul.
To your
eternal resting place where you dwell,
leaving
me alone without kissing me farewell.
Abba,
how I long to know how well you fared.
Thinking
about the sweet memories we shared.
Even
when you left some of your mind behind,
your
spirit taught me how to let go and unwind.
From
childhood, you were my pillar of strength.
You
taught me how the world works at length.
I
relied on you. There was nothing you did not know.
How
could I accept that one day you would have to go?
Abba,
to an unknown world you took a stroll,
you
went to yourself – to the essence of your soul.
To your
eternal resting place where you dwell,
leaving
me alone without kissing me farewell.
The
deepest pain in my heart, I confided.
You put
your arm around me when I cried.
You
were always there for me right by my side.
But who
could ever comfort me when you died?
I cried
when they brought you to a home.
You
continued to sing ‘hevenu shalom.’
You
were so present, love shone from your eyes.
I did
not realize how swiftly time flies.
We
would dance, laugh, sing and play.
You
escaped the home but didn’t stray.
You
walked the path. You knew the way
to your
real home without delay.
Abba,
to an unknown world you took a stroll,
you
went to yourself – to the essence of your soul.
To your
eternal resting place where you dwell,
leaving
me alone without kissing me farewell.
They
ensured that these escapades would stop.
No more
going out, even with mother to shop.
You
were like a lion that couldn’t be caged.
Not
allowed to come and go made you enraged.
They
were breaking your Jewish pride
Your
anger would no longer subside.
They
kept placing inside of your mug,
one
calming, sedating drug after drug.
No one
told me, I was kept in the dark.
I was
helpless far away from Denmark.
In vain
wanting to kidnap and bring you here,
to your
great grandchildren that you hold dear.
When
they told me that you were deep in sleep.
I could
not find rest my grief was too deep.
I
wanted to sing for you, pray and hold your hand.
But
there were no flight that day from Israel’s land.
They
didn’t even give a drop to keep you alive,
Until
the daughters from Israel would arrive.
More
morphine to take away the pain,
so you
would never open your eyes again.
When I
finally arrived, it was all over.
All I
could do was your face to cover.
How I
wanted to be with you when you left your body below,
to
accompany you on the last journey that you would go.
Abba,
to an unknown world you took a stroll,
you
went to yourself – to the essence of your soul.
To your
eternal resting place where you dwell,
leaving
me alone without kissing me farewell.
So beautiful Rebbetzin. May H-Shem bring you comfort.
ReplyDeleteHashem yinacheim eschem bsoch shaar aveilay Tzion vYershalaim.So sorry for your loss...your special Abba alav hashalom.
ReplyDeleteDeepest sympathies for your loss. Thank you for sharing these beautiful words.
ReplyDeleteYet he will continue on through you. Much love to you, rebbetzin... What beautiful & deep words have been expressed here. ✨
ReplyDeleteso sorry for your loss.I also tried to say goodbye to my father 5 months into my aliyah.He died while I was travelling to say goodbye.May your abba have a big aliyah. You wrote beautifully from the depths of your soul.sending love and hugs.
ReplyDeleteomg am i moved; message for anyone who has lost parent or spouse. gone to the essence of your
ReplyDeletesoul.........that someday you wuld have to go....... message for us all. miriam fishman los angeles
המקום ינחם אתכם בתוך שאר אבלי ציון וירושלים.
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful poem. Soon soon we will all be united again when Moshiach will come.
Crying with you sweet Chana! Such a beautiful illustration of your love and devotion to your Abba. Baruch haShem for your father and the love you shared!
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful and heartfelt. Your father would have been proud of you, as I am sure he was so many times before. Special poem, especially not being your first language. Made the garden you are planting in his name honor his memory, and be a place for you to visit with his spirit. Amen.
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ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your father's passing away! But what a moving, eloquent, and heartfelt poem to memorialize it! Whoever has lost a father can relate. HaMakom Yenachem Es'chem b'soch she'ar aveilei Tzion v'Yerushalayim.
Wishing you beautiful memories and nechama from Hashem.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your deep and beautiful emotions.
With love ❤️❤️❤️ Debbie Fliegelman
Thank you for sharing this, Chana Bracha. Though my own beloved Father passed 38 years ago, you wrote so tenderly, that I could feel him again.
ReplyDeleteMay you continue to feel his love and influence. may you be comforted from Above. And may his lovely soul rise high in aliyah. with love, Yicara Weisskoff, Har Nof